My mood has recently elevated. I was in a severe depressive spiral for a few months, and my dysfunction got supremely disruptive.
I feel better and am not dwelling on masochistic thoughts and I'm also trying to initiate things more. I played one of my favorite games, the old Battlefront 2, yesterday and had a great time. It's been hard to do that kind of thing for a while. I also rearranged my room a little bit to help in terms of visual comfort.
A lot of that depressive phase was brought on by forced change. I reacted extremely poorly. I am feeling more settled and at ease.
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We seldom realize, for example, that our most private thoughts and emotions are not actually our own. For we think in terms of languages and images which we did not invent, but which were given to us by our society - Alan Watts