Hey, does anybody read these?
25 Sep 2023, 4:24 pm
Hello DH Ridder, I apologize for the late response, I would have uploaded my response much earlier but there has been much set back in my life recently. However, firstly thank you for being so transparent with your struggles. That is a genuine strength there you have my friend. And while it may not seem like it, having lived with your disability undiagnosed for so long with little help but still persevering just shows how strong you are.
I can understand what you might be feeling, it must feel strange or even surreal to realize your diagnose. It seems you might even be fighting the mere idea of your diagnoses. You are standing on a paradigm, as your intention of knowing yourself more as a way to change and grow, might be contradictory to your desire of with the people around you.
Statically speaking, most people are able to register someone is is neurodivergent within seconds of meeting them. They may not fully comprehended, but that register is what you also might be feeling when you say you dont have deep connections as most people might feel a dissonance on exactly what was it they could not understand about you.
Not every person with autism fits the "stereotype", many autistic people are in different areas of expertise and even are just like you. Outgoing, extroverted, etc.
I recommend a book by Devon Price called, "Unmasking Autsim". I feel its a decent book that may help a little in your journey. Also, research more about autism, like fawning, autism burnout, dissociation, executive dysfunction, triggers, etc.
29 Sep 2023, 4:41 am
I can understand what you might be feeling, it must feel strange or even surreal to realize your diagnose. It seems you might even be fighting the mere idea of your diagnoses. You are standing on a paradigm, as your intention of knowing yourself more as a way to change and grow, might be contradictory to your desire of with the people around you.
Statically speaking, most people are able to register someone is is neurodivergent within seconds of meeting them. They may not fully comprehended, but that register is what you also might be feeling when you say you dont have deep connections as most people might feel a dissonance on exactly what was it they could not understand about you.
Not every person with autism fits the "stereotype", many autistic people are in different areas of expertise and even are just like you. Outgoing, extroverted, etc.
I recommend a book by Devon Price called, "Unmasking Autsim". I feel its a decent book that may help a little in your journey. Also, research more about autism, like fawning, autism burnout, dissociation, executive dysfunction, triggers, etc.
Thank you apexlegend06. I rarely give myself credit for being strong, I suppose because I’m afraid I'd just be stroking my ego.
This has been surreal. I’ve been searching for answers for a long time. And yet the more I discovered, the more I felt that I was on the “wrong planet”. So while I was surprised that I'd lived so long without knowing I am autistic, I’m actually not very surprised that there is just one more way that I am different.
Along with being neurodivergent, I'm a paradox, even to myself. I am, or at least I usually am very introverted. But there is also an extroverted side to me. I am a leader who does not want to lead, and a performer who avoids the limelight.
I think this is one of the reasons I do not have a support network around me, because people tend to freak out whenever someone they really look up to for strength or wisdom has a serious breakdown.
When the thought that I am probably autistic first entered my head, I immediately felt that this was just another thing that I was going to have to face by myself. But I did recently read Unmasking Autism, which is why I thought perhaps I should challenge my habit of trying to solve everything alone, and so I started this account at Wrong Planet.
Thank you again.
