I like history at school but was bullied about every day at mainstream school by pupils and teachers alike. The extra humiliation was when I was mainstreamed in 1977 I was put a year behind. Not only that I was put in with the less able kids at the time and had to do that work. I really didn't enjoy school with all that going on. However in 1983 I did teach myself chemistry to a level post O Level (or after 1988 post higher tier GCSE) within about 6 months. I did that during the school holidays and in the 6th form I decided to do a chemistry A level course. I didn't complete that because I had left school in 1984. I left school with 6 CSEs of low grades (which are equivalent to foundation GCSE courses post 1988). I did like history and even got a top mark in a history test one time on medieval history. But the CSE result was only a grade 4 which wasn't worth the paper it was written on. I at college done a unit in Chemistry with very high exam results and I answered the questions that the tutor asked. I also done a bit of physics and mathematics but I had to drop out of the course as I had to pay for that myself and didn't have the money. Evev the head of science at the college said my exam results were very good. Mathematics I didn't know factorising very well and was like a rabbit in a head light. I had a bully of a maths teacher at secondary school who used to yell at me or humiliate me in front of the class. Actually that class from 1983-84 had the same predator (bullies are predators too) teaching CSE arithmetic. I had him as a maths teacher for 3 years. Before that one the Asian teacher couldn't teach. Also during 1983-84 I was experiencing temporal lobe seizures which was diagnosed as epilepsy back in 1987 in Oxford. 40 years later I done maths from YouTube videos which have better teachers/tutors than I had at school. I have since taught myself factorising which is needed for solving quadratic equations simplifying rational expressions in turn needed for evaluating limits which is needed for a calculus class. I also taught myself that the slope of a tangent line touching a curve is its derivative at aparticular point. If I did that later work much earlier I may had had a worse epilepsy or more seizures than I did which could get me accused of faking epilepsy for attention (gaslighting that is). I eventually started to teach myself calculus as well despite not doing calculus at school or college. Also maintaining an epileptic remission whilst doing so using a better anti epilepsy medicine than carbamazepine.
16 Aug 2024, 4:33 am
