^ I’m very sorry to hear about your bad experience.
I was briefly on a small dose of it during an especially dark time of my life a few years ago and found it helpful. There’s no denying that it’s harmed a lot of people, though. In my humble opinion, it’s probably not something that should be used beyond small doses and for short periods of time unless one doesn’t respond to newer antipsychotics (or off-label medications) and it’s necessary, not that I’m a doctor or anything.
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