To be understood, not critisized for not showing enough emotion, no having "sincere sounding" gratitude, speaking in such a "flat" tone, not to be forced away from my own world (staring & observing, listening and recalling music). My ever-so beleivable pretending & acting has become my downfall & trap - people beleive I am a different person to what I am, including my parents.
And above all, no change. I'm in my last year of the sixth form now (well coming up to), where everythings settling down, I can just about manage a conversation or two, things are good (aside from money wise), I'm in a familiar environment ... as soon as that years up, it's off to university. I have meltdowns when catching a train or leaving my house, nevermind living or existing somewhere foreign. I want it all to freeze, time to stay still, if you like.
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