I reckon this is ''social phobia'', tel me if I'm wrong or not.
I work volluntry at a charity shop now, and I get a free travel buspass, so I go every day. I get the bus at 9, and come back at 2. Funnily enough, I am fine with doing that.
But when I get home, and close the front door, I never want to come back out again, (unless I'm walking out with somebody else). But if I've got to go back out on my own, I always loose my courage. Like the other Wednesday I came off the bus and went into my hous - then I saw I needed some milk. I have a supermarket only up the road, which is less than a five-minute walk - but I just could not go back out. I had lost all my courage. And it was the time all the kids were coming out of school, and in between my house and the supermarket there is a primary school - so I didn't fancy meeting all the kids anyway. The supermarket gets really packed after school times, and I just could not face it.
Is this Agoraphobia, or is it social phobia?
Also, when I am walking along with a friend, and there are people walking towards us, I hate it if they pass on my side, and not my friend's side, if you know what I mean. I've always got to step behind my friend to let them by, whilst my friend walks in a straight line and doesn't have to keep stepping aside to let other people pass us on narrow paths. Catch my drift?
Could this be social phobia?
Also, there is a town called Braintree where I go to on the bus, and then there's this seperate shopping centre nearby called Freeport, and from Braintree to Freeport there's a free bus. That's not so good, because in the school holidays, lots and lots of teenagers all gather there to get on this free bus to hang around at the shopping centre. So many gather there, that I am reluctant to get a job in Freeport because I hate the idea of waiting with all these teenagers. Plus they all pile on to the bus, pushing others out their way and making adults feel intimidated, and then there is so many people piled onto the bus that there is no room for anyone else, so they have to wait for the next ride. And on the next ride more teenagers pile on, and there's a mature adult like me who needs to get to work, and there's all these pushy, boisterious kids who have no important responsibilities who all get priority on the bus.
So I can't wait with all the teenagers - I'll just be dreading every holiday.
So is this Agoraphobia or social phobia?