Me too.
Was so very clueless as a kid-as I've aged, I've learned, which has increased my self-consciousness (causing both positive & negative psychological consequences).
Nothing I do ever feels 'right enough', beyond reproach or criticism. I'm painfully vulnerable to others' disparaging comments, now that I've become sensitized to those factors.
Am self-aware, self-absorbed, self-centered, self-obsessed, self-interested, etc.-a combination of aspects that is both constructive and destructive.
_________________
*"I don't know what it is, but I know what it isn't."*