I have a macabre gothic streak; I do want to be buried. I would like to be put in an elaborate decrepit crypt. Very appealing, somehow.
My father was cremated and his ashes were sprinkled over the Inlet. I am not especially sentimental, but I loved my father. Sometimes, not too often, I have 'orphan pains.' I wish I had a place to go where I could touch his grave in private.......there is nowhere. The Inlet is vast and he's gone. Please don't ever tell: He's long since dead and I have no place to visit my parent, whom I sometimes miss. I've actually gone to the hospital room where he died. No one knew, of course, but I sat in the hallway nearby because I think I felt....sad? I have nowhere to go to visit when I need my parent. I miss him on occasion. He understood autism. No one else has ever been so kind to me. He won't come back either. I cried in the hospital hallway but no one saw, which is best.
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The ones who say “You can’t” and “You won’t” are probably the ones scared that you will. - Unknown