Walking contradiction

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When I was diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome I was told it was a very mild form of it. So I guess you could say I have a lot of NT traits and that could go a long way to explaining why I can socialise quite well.

But I've found that all my life I've been trying to fit myself into a box, as in, define myself by an ideology, or trend, or philosophy etc. name your genre. That, as claimed by quite a few people on this site, is an NT trait.
But the moment I fit into one, or convince myself that I do, I'm met by this overwhelming rebellious, stubborn streak. This really strong need to prove I DON'T fit into it. So it's like, I'm always looking to find a box I fit into, but none of them can contain me.

Anyone think there's any legitimacy to me claiming it might have something to do with my AS only being mild?? Because I know a lot of you adamantly refuse to fit in to a box. Either that or it's just in your nature not to.

Anyway, what do you lot think?

I think you're right to say, that this is typical for mild cases of Aspergers. Stronger cases of Autism won't go into contact with groups of people (whatever kind) at all.

But in addition you age may play a role. It's quite common to find a "role" for your life and to form opinions, political, social, philosophical somewhere between 15 and 25 (may depend on the individual). Then you may want to become "active" in some way and "do" something. That's of course easier in a group. That's as true for NTs as for Aspies. Most Aspies would like to have better social contacts anyway, they just can't, while you can at least to some degree.

Maybe the fact, that many Aspies of that age are interested in groups like Gothics, Punks or Emos has similar reasons.

i think if you divorce your age from your As you will find that this isnt too uncommon in most post teens/early twenties.

most young men and women your age go through a period of identity discovery....it will linger and develop until you develop a sense of self awareness and an ability to identify and validate yourself without he benefit of others approval, or the approval of the security and knowledge of being associated with a given identity.