Who has delusions?

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If you have a delusion, surely you don't know you're having a delusion - that's the whole point, isn't it?

I have difficulty with my sense of 'self', and sometimes I can't tell if I've been to a place or if I just dreamed about it or read about it. I often have deja-vu about things and places even though I don't think I've seen them before/been there. The weirdest thing is that, because I lack a strong sense of personal identity, I sometimes can't tell myself apart from the fictional characters I identify most with.

I'm pretty sure that none of that is a form of psychosis, though, and doesn't really qualify as 'delusional'.

...Anyway, sorry I ranted, but I just wanted to get that off my chest. I would delete it and forget about it, but I just put too much time into it to waste it. Plus it would be cool, though I'm a doubtin it would happen, if somebody added to it. I kinda wonder why I want to go into psychology, but i think it's because this is one main thing I'd like to see change about it. Like the diagnostic criteria really needs to be written so any idiot or psychologist who lives in the gray area of ethics (like Dr. Phil) doesn't confuse it or twist it.

According to the evil doctors (Dr. Evil is my psychiatrist or it seems like it because he calls me crazy) they say I have bizarre delusions and in the past I know that's true because some of it is no longer happening. I'll just give you a list of ones that I have now and ones that I have had in the past:
Now:
1. Like you mentioned, aliens implanted a chip in my brain and they say I have a special purpose for them. (you read my mind, huh?)
2. That there are nanobots inside of me and I actually feel them so it can't be a delusion but the evil doctors say it is.
3. That I have inserted thoughts from the government and aliens
4. Thought broadcasting
5. I have this "mode" that I turn into a bird and think I can fly (I have actually tried to fly before) and during this time I lose my language and speak gibberish
6. That I am being controlled by the government from a satellite.
7. That I am a doctor (I realize this one is a delusion but the reason why I think this is because some doctors in the past said I know more than them in psychology!)
8. That I influence the economy and stock market
9. That I am going to turn into a robot (the thought insertion told me that-I would never think that on my own and the same with all these other so called delusions)
10. That there are cloaked FBI agents after me (I heard their footsteps and seen their footsteps but no body so it must be them)
Past:
1. I influenced world disasters with my psychic dreams.
2. That I controlled criminals with my mind to kill people
3. I don't know if this one is current or the past but aliens put a device that broacasts my thoughts to the world.
4. A grandiose delusion- I had this personality that thought she was God (yes, I have DID as well- I had 10 personalities but they don't happen really anymore)

I want to say this is bull because any Aspie could have all three. When it comes to emotions, everybody has all emotions including sadness and irritability. People with AS is going to feel a lot of those depressive, anxious, and manic symptoms when dealing with negative external stimuli like large groups of people, bullies, etc. So, there's three of that required two. You can also just assume the autistic symptoms are there for AS. Now, the psychotic symptoms. Many Aspies seem to think they are better than NTs, so that's a delusion. Since we are so nervous in social settings, often our speech gets disorganized. That's two out of two. Now we got three for three, so we must all be also this.

They really need to start wording these things better. That would totally make sense if people had all those things for no reason. Like the Autistic symptoms are there for no rhyme or reason. But, when you get into the emotional and "psychotic" symptoms, many are symptoms shared by all people as part of human nature. In addition, many are also common responses to certain stimuli. There is really no way to tell if someone is depressed for no reason whatsoever or if there was a normal reason for it (like they got fired) unless they volunteer the information for a normal reason, but since you would never know as a psychologist if there is a reason for it, then you can't be certain if those symptoms are really abnormal to have them or if they are a part of human nature. I just assume that a disorder means it's abnormal; otherwise, everyone has a disorder of some sort. Then again, maybe that's not what I'm getting. Everyone does have a disorder. The opposite of disorder would be order. Every person has some aspect of themselves that interferes with the common order of things. Maybe all those disorders is Psycholgy's way of creating an orderly world. Like in the Cat and the Hat movie with Mike Meyers.

This is what I don't get about psychology. It reminds me too much of the UCMJ (military code of justice...law). The UCMJ has a rule for everything. It is virtually impossible to follow all those rules. What results from this? Control. They can decide for any reason if they like you or not and work all those rules against you if they don't like you. I really think the reason why is because all the people making the laws are bored and just add laws to avoid doing any real work and show that their job is still needed so please don't fire me type thing. This is what psychology does with their diagnostic criteria (which most psychologists don't even follow as much as trendy news articles, which is why half the world is now ADHD). It creates an easier way to control. Like ADHD is a fun control for the pharmaceutical industry so they can make all that money off their amphetamine cocktails. Do you really think Chrystal Meth is illegal because it's bad for you? No, it's illegal because the company making Ritalin or Adderall can't profit from illegal sales of similar products, thereby, the government doesn't profit because illegal drug dealers don't always pay taxes (some actually do, and it was a very interesting story in accounting class because the guy paid taxes on his illegal drug sales and listed drug dealer as his primary occupation on his taxes for like 10 years; when he got busted, he didn't go to jail because some law says that you cannot prohibit someone from performing their primary means of income and him paying taxes on it and listing it as such proved it as his primary source of income, but he was court ordered to change his occupation). Anyway, I am willing to bet that the pharmaceutical companies have lobbyists that helped coerced IDEA into including ADHD on there so that schools are pushing kids into that diagnosis and medicine in order for the schools to collect more grant money which in turns increases sales for the pharmaceuticals. Aspergers, fortunately, doesn't make the pharmaceutical companies any money cause there is no drug for it which may be why it's diagnostic criteria makes a little more sense, but all those emotional and psychotic symptoms, the ones that hardly make any sense, can be treated with medicine. Hmmm?

Anyway, sorry I ranted, but I just wanted to get that off my chest. I would delete it and forget about it, but I just put too much time into it to waste it. Plus it would be cool, though I'm a doubtin it would happen, if somebody added to it. I kinda wonder why I want to go into psychology, but i think it's because this is one main thing I'd like to see change about it. Like the diagnostic criteria really needs to be written so any idiot or psychologist who lives in the gray area of ethics (like Dr. Phil) doesn't confuse it or twist it.

" A person who claims to be Santa Claus or Jesus Christ is delusional. Many NT's have used the phrase, "You are delusional" when people say things like "She doesn't like me because I'm prettier than she is." .

I think that is more gullible than delusional but if you claim you believe in Santa Clause not because Mom and Dad told you but because you feel you actually witnessed him land on your roof with all his reindeer with your own eyes then that would be delusional. Delusional in a more bizarre sense. Or you believe in Jesus Christ not because of what you were taught at Sunday School but you actually saw him walk on water then that would also be delusional.