My Writings
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28 Oct 2004, 7:46 pm
Here are some songs I've written:
Quote:
Touching Clarity
Pattern's leak through tissue
To leave a reminder of the swollen sting
Clouds burn with a bitter taste
And black rain drips from the tips of my fingers
These scales don't quiet weigh in
When an image of perfection seems far away
Desire lays out in front of me
While shallow skin sinks in and the inside dries out
As soon as they first saw my face, they knew something was wrong
A look this pale could never blend in a circle of missing colors
Never felt much further out of place, disaproval hints in their laughter
They never took the time to make sure I was going to be alright
Disgust points out every detail
Through the shades of my reflections focus
Mindless things become obsession
The center that once went without notice
I dwell on things that can't be changed
Because as long as they remain I won't satisfy
Deprivation feels like the only solution
When you can't live another day looking at this
Print me a label if you must, but simple words can only be so specific
Because if you want to make a point you have to go in detail
Sketches burn of a familiar face, and something leaves me in circles
Notice how the oppurtunity came but we were buried away
The sacrifice of finding yourself
Is never touching clarity with who you once were
Pattern's leak through tissue
To leave a reminder of the swollen sting
Clouds burn with a bitter taste
And black rain drips from the tips of my fingers
These scales don't quiet weigh in
When an image of perfection seems far away
Desire lays out in front of me
While shallow skin sinks in and the inside dries out
As soon as they first saw my face, they knew something was wrong
A look this pale could never blend in a circle of missing colors
Never felt much further out of place, disaproval hints in their laughter
They never took the time to make sure I was going to be alright
Disgust points out every detail
Through the shades of my reflections focus
Mindless things become obsession
The center that once went without notice
I dwell on things that can't be changed
Because as long as they remain I won't satisfy
Deprivation feels like the only solution
When you can't live another day looking at this
Print me a label if you must, but simple words can only be so specific
Because if you want to make a point you have to go in detail
Sketches burn of a familiar face, and something leaves me in circles
Notice how the oppurtunity came but we were buried away
The sacrifice of finding yourself
Is never touching clarity with who you once were
Quote:
Thirst For Affection
Torn from the disillusions of love
It always seems to take the self-assurance out of me
This thirst for affection has left me in the cold just like my tendency
To set myself up for something I knew would never happen
How much longer will I hurt before I learn to give up on being content?
I never thought a few words could carry so much regret, words I'll never hear you say again
This is my confession, there is no extent to what I would do to be sheltered by your presence
With only a smile you took me away
But I never thought that same smile would cease mine
Are you afraid to unleash the delicate emotions that broke you down
Or is this just as hard for you to assume the worst of things
That you won't even let me in to what's scattering throughout your mind?
Another day passes by without ever knowing what I could have done to have you here with me
Please, don't leave me broken as the glass I once held to pick out the pieces of my shattered pride
Were you so alone that you had to use this thirst for affection
As a way to escape from your desolated nightmares?
Were you waiting for someone to come along and fill this void
Or did you expect to get hurt by trying to be sincere?
Torn from the disillusions of love
It always seems to take the self-assurance out of me
This thirst for affection has left me in the cold just like my tendency
To set myself up for something I knew would never happen
How much longer will I hurt before I learn to give up on being content?
I never thought a few words could carry so much regret, words I'll never hear you say again
This is my confession, there is no extent to what I would do to be sheltered by your presence
With only a smile you took me away
But I never thought that same smile would cease mine
Are you afraid to unleash the delicate emotions that broke you down
Or is this just as hard for you to assume the worst of things
That you won't even let me in to what's scattering throughout your mind?
Another day passes by without ever knowing what I could have done to have you here with me
Please, don't leave me broken as the glass I once held to pick out the pieces of my shattered pride
Were you so alone that you had to use this thirst for affection
As a way to escape from your desolated nightmares?
Were you waiting for someone to come along and fill this void
Or did you expect to get hurt by trying to be sincere?
Quote:
Provisions of Failure
Pressed upon me, describing every flaw
Anguish my words quickly supplied
Constantly stripping me of the things
That gave out a reason to strive
Just when I think I can turn to myself for an answer
I find my own dependence will only lead up to failure
I won't let myself be unsatisfied with who I am
But there's so much about me that I can't accept
There's just so much I wish I could change
Pushed against me, more painful everyday
An image I refuse to accept
Tangled in my failures and resentments
How long will I live with regret?
Just when I think I can look to myself for dependence
Nothing seems to set in and I turn to you for guidance
I won't let myself be unsatisfied with who I am
But there's so much about me that I can't accept
There's just so much I wish I could change
As soon as I get close, I let myself slip away
From what's standing right in front of me
I've needed to look past, provisions I've made
But they can't seem to be proven wrong
What I've always desired was once in my grasp
But now it's something I will never have
How am I suppose to learn from my mistakes
When I don't even know what they are
Pressed upon me, describing every flaw
Anguish my words quickly supplied
Constantly stripping me of the things
That gave out a reason to strive
Just when I think I can turn to myself for an answer
I find my own dependence will only lead up to failure
I won't let myself be unsatisfied with who I am
But there's so much about me that I can't accept
There's just so much I wish I could change
Pushed against me, more painful everyday
An image I refuse to accept
Tangled in my failures and resentments
How long will I live with regret?
Just when I think I can look to myself for dependence
Nothing seems to set in and I turn to you for guidance
I won't let myself be unsatisfied with who I am
But there's so much about me that I can't accept
There's just so much I wish I could change
As soon as I get close, I let myself slip away
From what's standing right in front of me
I've needed to look past, provisions I've made
But they can't seem to be proven wrong
What I've always desired was once in my grasp
But now it's something I will never have
How am I suppose to learn from my mistakes
When I don't even know what they are
Quote:
Cut Me Deeper
I try to cover up these scars and the choices I've made
But it's clear the only thing that seems to help is this blade
I try to look away but it's consuming my every thought
All I can think about is living in the fear of being caught
Replacing every scar with an open wound to medicate
Myself from the problems that always seem to create
I'll ease the pain with every cut
until I can feel some relief
Though there won't always be room
to cover up these scars
I'll medicate myself from the pain
that I've kept down inside
Because the only way to soothe me
is to feel it cut me deeper
I try to stop myself but I fall into the blades comfort
Because within all of it's pain is the relief from all the hurt
It's clear that I can't control myself, I'm just too afraid
Because this is the only outlet that let's the pain evade
And although tommorow it will show across my arms
The relief is worth each and every one of these scars
I tried to hide this from the world
But these secrets couldn't conceal the truth inside
I tried to hide this from everyone
A broken promise to never pick up this blade again
I'll ease the pain with every cut
until I can feel some relief
Though there won't always be room
to cover up these scars
I'll medicate myself from the pain
that I've kept down inside
Because the only way to soothe me
is to feel it cut me deeper
I try to cover up these scars and the choices I've made
But it's clear the only thing that seems to help is this blade
I try to look away but it's consuming my every thought
All I can think about is living in the fear of being caught
Replacing every scar with an open wound to medicate
Myself from the problems that always seem to create
I'll ease the pain with every cut
until I can feel some relief
Though there won't always be room
to cover up these scars
I'll medicate myself from the pain
that I've kept down inside
Because the only way to soothe me
is to feel it cut me deeper
I try to stop myself but I fall into the blades comfort
Because within all of it's pain is the relief from all the hurt
It's clear that I can't control myself, I'm just too afraid
Because this is the only outlet that let's the pain evade
And although tommorow it will show across my arms
The relief is worth each and every one of these scars
I tried to hide this from the world
But these secrets couldn't conceal the truth inside
I tried to hide this from everyone
A broken promise to never pick up this blade again
I'll ease the pain with every cut
until I can feel some relief
Though there won't always be room
to cover up these scars
I'll medicate myself from the pain
that I've kept down inside
Because the only way to soothe me
is to feel it cut me deeper
Quote:
The Rituals of Admiration
Leave your rituals of admiration behind
Let them cling to the wall
This is the day where victims become the enemy
Will you stay suffering
Or will your charity come back to save you?
This is where one decision will decide your fate
Your destination lies in a choice you've already made
We will take no part of a foundation
Built around propitous names
We will acknowledge how the pieces of society
Don't quiet come together
There is no reason to be moved by the concept
Of attaching to a social structure
Burning eyes comforted by the demise
Of a world that tears apart so much innocence
You're only getting what you gave in return
Learn to treat others with respect they deserve
Many have waited just to see you suffer
The growing numbers are no longer in your favor
We will not judge other's by the outside
But for what they truely are
We will not stare into the glass of other's lives
The reflection is of our own
How does it feel now that the upper hand
Lies in someone else's palms?
Passed out to you, the judgements you make
Never again will another person be shelled
By your narrow-minded beliefs
All intentions will set free
Leave your rituals of admiration behind
Let them cling to the wall
This is the day where victims become the enemy
Will you run in fear
Or turn back for the ones you cherish?
These are the moments of truth that define you
Who you really are lies in the choices you've made
Leave your rituals of admiration behind
Let them cling to the wall
This is the day where victims become the enemy
Will you stay suffering
Or will your charity come back to save you?
This is where one decision will decide your fate
Your destination lies in a choice you've already made
We will take no part of a foundation
Built around propitous names
We will acknowledge how the pieces of society
Don't quiet come together
There is no reason to be moved by the concept
Of attaching to a social structure
Burning eyes comforted by the demise
Of a world that tears apart so much innocence
You're only getting what you gave in return
Learn to treat others with respect they deserve
Many have waited just to see you suffer
The growing numbers are no longer in your favor
We will not judge other's by the outside
But for what they truely are
We will not stare into the glass of other's lives
The reflection is of our own
How does it feel now that the upper hand
Lies in someone else's palms?
Passed out to you, the judgements you make
Never again will another person be shelled
By your narrow-minded beliefs
All intentions will set free
Leave your rituals of admiration behind
Let them cling to the wall
This is the day where victims become the enemy
Will you run in fear
Or turn back for the ones you cherish?
These are the moments of truth that define you
Who you really are lies in the choices you've made
