Scream high pitched, or shout (usually only at mum when it's at home)
Cry uncontrollably
Bang walls/desks/tables/doors, usually only sturdy things cos I don't wanna break anything and get unto more trouble
Have smacked/banged head before
Eyes went all glazed once
Rock back and forth
Sit down with head bent towards knees
Heavy breathing
Violence towars things - asked to tear up driving test report when I failed (restrained myself), have ripped up or torn bad essays before
Go into a corner away from people and hidden (at school)
Make fists
Bite/scratch myself
Very rarely hit anyone else due to the upset it causes them and me later on, though may hit away anyone trying to touch me
Flap hands up and down
Reduced concentration - invisible wall means I am not capable of doing much, if anything which makes it worse cos I conciously know there is something I have to do (usually the trigger)
Struggle to make decisions usually, esp under pressure, but it makes it all worse
Give evils if I am willing to look up (not often)
Threaten to kill myself
Apologise (towards end when I'm coming back to reality)
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