Morgana wrote:
I can "remember" some faces from my childhood, but they are all frozen, like snapshots. To be honest, I think most of my memories are from pictures anyway.
But according to these transactual analysis exercises that I wrote about in my first Post, one is supposed to go back to one´s childhood and see the faces and body language of people- animated, and with expressions- sort of like little movies of the past. This I absolutely can´t do at all. I see no movement or movies, it´s all a kind of a blur.
I wonder if part of this is because I probably never really looked at people much when I was younger. When I made an effort to concentrate on my eye contact about 6 years ago, I realized, in doing so, that I had barely looked at people up to that point.
In contrast, I can see faces and body language of people from the more recent past. I don´t think this has so much to do with actual memory, but more with where my focus is- (literally and figuratively).
Does anyone have a similar experience?
Yes exactly what I said, I think what I am remebering from my childhood are photos. I never looked at people and I still don't actually. I have worked on my eye contact to the point where I can pull it off enough to seem 'honest and trustworthy' and all that.. but I still don't 'look' at them. I look at an invisible glass wall about an inch from their face or I look at them but space out in my brain so that I'm not actually seeing them. That's the only way I can pull off eye contact. So it still doesn't help me to see and remember people
I am thinking now and the person I know the best is my (soon to be ex) husband who I have known for 5 years and the first person I was comfortable looking at... I can mostly see his face if I think about it.. but I still can't really see him moving or his facial expressions or body language