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Forum: LGBT Discussion Topic: The pain of no SRS: Why it won't go away |
| kittylover |
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Posted: 30 Sep 2014, 1:07 pm
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Replies: 10
Views: 1,861
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| I can afford SRS but I will never be able to pass. I don't even live part-time as a woman. My gender dysphoria is pretty severe now. With the slightest trigger, I will wince in pain and start to cry. It's mostly about my face, but I also want "them" gone. During my crying fits, I often imagine takin... |
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Forum: LGBT Discussion Topic: No motivation anymore |
| kittylover |
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Posted: 16 Sep 2014, 11:51 am
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Replies: 3
Views: 1,102
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| When I go somewhere that has a mirror, I have to look away from it or I will start crying. This has been going on for years. But now, I've been avoiding speaking when I can, because I hearing my own voice also triggers these feelings now. My therapist doesn't offer any solution to my problems other ... |
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Forum: LGBT Discussion Topic: Are you Mysexual? |
| kittylover |
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Posted: 16 Sep 2014, 11:38 am
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Replies: 14
Views: 2,286
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| Is there a word for the opposite of this, that you hate what you look like? That's how I am. |
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Forum: LGBT Discussion Topic: If I discovered I could never get SRS,... |
| kittylover |
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Posted: 15 Aug 2014, 11:21 am
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Replies: 1
Views: 1,158
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| It's the same for me, pretty much. I want this...thing between my legs gone. I can't have a relationship with anyone while I have "it" because I don't want to be touched romantically if I'm male. |
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Forum: LGBT Discussion Topic: Suicide. |
| kittylover |
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Posted: 03 Jun 2014, 6:21 am
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Replies: 33
Views: 3,625
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| I mean, I have been suicidal and I understand that one cannot help such feelings, and I understand how, without any support, a person may not be able to resist those feelings. I'm just trying to answer your question of whether or not I think it is logical . And I don't see any logic in it. There is... |
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Forum: LGBT Discussion Topic: doing things/ wanting to be of the oposite gender when young |
| kittylover |
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Posted: 02 Jun 2014, 6:00 am
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Replies: 12
Views: 1,563
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| You said to correct your mistakes with English in your automatic signature, so I did. =) 1- what were your experiences with gender dysphoria? Growing up, it was never really a direct thought of "I'm really a girl inside" until I was 15 or so. I was definitely confused about my gender early - on my f... |
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Forum: LGBT Discussion Topic: I'll never pass (MTF trans) |
| kittylover |
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Posted: 16 May 2014, 1:50 am
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Replies: 29
Views: 12,901
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| I'm also surprised at how poor your results have been. If you are taking street hormones try to find an endocrinologist. If you are seeing a professional for your hormones find a new one. Something just sounds wrong. I'm seeing Dr. Richard Horowitz in Los Angeles, someone many other transpeople see... |
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Forum: LGBT Discussion Topic: I'll never pass (MTF trans) |
| kittylover |
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Posted: 14 May 2014, 12:37 pm
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Replies: 29
Views: 12,901
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| I have a strong need to be able to look in a mirror and see a woman. If I can't do that, what is the point? Similarly, if nobody else sees me as a woman, all the legal protections in the world aren't going to make others' treatment of me the way it should be. I'm about the same height as you, with h... |
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Forum: LGBT Discussion Topic: I'll never pass (MTF trans) |
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Posted: 14 May 2014, 11:32 am
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Replies: 29
Views: 12,901
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| I'm pretty sure that I will never be able to "pass" as a woman. My body is just too large for this, too male-shaped. My therapist agrees. I don't know what to do anymore. My gender dysphoria is really strong now, to the point thst crying every morning is the norm. At work, I have a stuffed animal th... |
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Forum: LGBT Discussion Topic: Suicide. |
| kittylover |
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Posted: 20 Apr 2014, 12:37 pm
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Replies: 33
Views: 3,625
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| What do you have to lose except time? Death is just so uncertain still... I'd rather you be able to somehow find something in the future to help make you content, rather then toss it all away and give into a possibility of pain you can't escape. :( Time being alive is causing me pain. Every hour I'... |
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Forum: LGBT Discussion Topic: New life through 3d printing. |
| kittylover |
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Posted: 17 Apr 2014, 3:01 am
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Replies: 12
Views: 1,108
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| That's a very pessimistic, and more importantly unrealistic, take on the world. :( Trust me. I fully intend to see to it, if no-one else will. Toss money at several dozen bioengineers till I get my way. First I need to acquire the funds, but that shouldn't be too hard... A prerequisite to body exch... |
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Forum: LGBT Discussion Topic: New life through 3d printing. |
| kittylover |
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Posted: 16 Apr 2014, 11:57 am
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Replies: 12
Views: 1,108
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This isn't going to happen in our lifetimes. We were born too early.
I'll get back to shivering and crying now. |
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Forum: LGBT Discussion Topic: A New Hope |
| kittylover |
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Posted: 13 Apr 2014, 6:02 am
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Replies: 15
Views: 1,320
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| I'll likely be dead from either old age or suicide before this ever becomes available to us. And besides, it doesn't help my real problems, which are my face and size. |
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Forum: LGBT Discussion Topic: A New Hope |
| kittylover |
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Posted: 12 Apr 2014, 5:38 am
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Replies: 15
Views: 1,320
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| I have a feeling that the only reason that this is one of the first organs remanufactured this way is because it is one of the simplest to make from stem cells. Scientists are way more interested in curing cancer and other severe diseases than what society feels is esoteric and undeserving. I would ... |
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Forum: LGBT Discussion Topic: Suicide. |
| kittylover |
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Posted: 12 Apr 2014, 5:24 am
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Replies: 33
Views: 3,625
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| I don't believe in reincarnation or any afterlife, so death is just nothingness to me; a cessation of consciousness. But this would be preferable to my existence now - zero is greater than all negative numbers. |
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Forum: LGBT Discussion Topic: Antidepressents |
| kittylover |
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Posted: 12 Apr 2014, 5:14 am
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Replies: 7
Views: 661
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| I'm on antidepressants, but I'm still severely depressed all the time from gender dysphoria and wish I were dead. I cry shivering most nights. It's possible, though, that antidepressants move me from immediate suicide risk to merely wishing myself dead without acting. |
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