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Twolf, thanks most kindly sir for, even I'm 38 years of age I could pass physically for someone in their 50's, long story.
Still, I do try my best with whatever I post and try not to overtly worry when I make communication mistakes though it's not easy.However, I continue forwards..

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ProfessorX

tounge tied and twisted, just an earth bound misfit , I
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This thread is sososo comforting! Like many have said, I always thought mutism was interesting but never stopped to consider how I had in fact been selectively mute for as long as I could remember!

Even in trying to type out this reply, I find it hard to make the correct words come out (and have deleted and retyped MANY things). I'm extremely grateful for being able to type/text messages to people in this modern age rather than being forced to phone or visit. You can't reread and retype when you're speaking aloud!

After years of observing conversations around me, I'm getting a little better at making small talk. Every time I try to speak with people, I honestly consider it practice or a workout! NTs don't realize how easy they have it to be able to say anything with ease.

I am not having much luck coming up with words lately, most of what comes to mind is something like "aughhh...".

I feel really alone but I don't have any words I feel like I can say. No one else has posted since me, does anyone have similar problem. Not mute but just feel like can't say real things at any cost, too sacred, have to preserve what's left of the connections I have. Prob. made no sense.

I am very glad to find this place. taking is very hard for me.

I have a very hard time defending myself (verbally, that is). I've noticed that if someone gets the situation wrong, which of course can happen, I cannot ever right the situation. Even when I've clearly done nothing, at all, wrong I still can come across almost as if I'm guilty.

I feel like I kind of belong here.

I was mute for 2 years during high school - I would literally speak only to 3 particular people, and never while others were around. Luckily one of them knew me well enough that he could read my mind most of the time and speak for me whenever necessary.

Nowadays, I do speak but I go through times, periods or situation where it is impossible for me to do so. When I am embarrassed, I cannot speak (not that it matters, because when I am embarrassed I just run away anyway). Or sometimes if I go through a extremely bad period, I cannot speak then either. Sometimes when I start to get overstimulated or am around lots of strangers, I am unable to speak then also.

I tend think kinesthetically / visually / patterns, which in some regards makes it much more difficult for me to communicate with words. I struggle greatly with accurately expressing myself in written format, but it is much, much worse verbally. What also doesn't help is that I mix up words, letters, or my word order occasionally, along with not being able to spell - naturally people tend to mock me for these things even though it is not something I can control, it's not lack of education or me not paying attention, my brain is just wired a bit differently and sometimes gets signals mixed up in those areas.

I have given up defending myself verbally, it's just one of the times when I cannot speak. You're right in saying that all it does is make you look guilty and while it does annoy me, these days I don't waste my time correcting other peoples assumptions and judgements, it's their own problem to deal with.