I made the mistake of reading old diary entries tonight and realised how socially inept I've been my whole life. I want to turn back time and not do those stupid things I did back then.
Most of all I'm pissed off at how I let people walk all over me all my life. And it wasn't because I was nice. It was because half the time I couldn't understand what was going on socially and things kept taking me by surprise, and I was acting on impulse.
Fighting a losing battle to harden myself against the whole damn world, loved ones included, just so I don't have to ever go through that again. Well, the ground gets walked all over too - until one day it covers those who once walked all over it.
Got to remember that next time and just smile at the next wanker who tries to push me around using clever, emotionally manipulative mind tricks.
There's an old saying I love: "Take a good look at the person you most despise; you'll be working for them one day."
Over and f*****g OUT.
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"There once was a little molecule who dreamed of being part of the crest of a great wave..."
(From the story 'The Little Molecule' - Amazon Kindle, 2013)