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Lace-Bane should have been asleep 2 hours ago

Having quit approximately 2 years and 10 months ago, I have a strong desire to take (light) smoking back up. This isn't a new thought or sudden craving. I always liked smoking. I resented the conditions under which I quit because I didn't want to quit yet. Most people go back to smoking after quitting in a moment of weakness or thoughtlessness, but I've been considering it intermittently and rationally for months. I know that I shouldn't because it's unhealthy and it smells, but if one is only a very light smoker the first of these problems in minimal and the latter can be non-existent. I miss having pleasures in life--the only ones I have had for a very long time are talking to people online and doing tasks mindfully, and these are proving insufficient. So the only real reasons I can think not to smoke are that some people would look down on or find me unattractive for it, and those are pretty terrible reasons. And that it yellows the teeth, but if I'm honest with myself, I don't sincerely believe that I will ever have a real romantic relationship again, so it is hard to see yellow teeth as mattering. There is also the issue of quitting again later, but I am a willful individual and managed it last time with relative ease. I probably will not take it back up, but I certainly would like to.

Maybe this belongs in The Haven. Oh well, there it is.

Just wondering if I should buy myself a more improved router model or get a 3rd hard drive, as I have 2 hard drives already on my system?

In other news here is my newest avatar...

The eyes of Camus.

Gin sounds fantastic right about now.

The mess and clutter in my house and an impending visit from a medical practitioner to re-assess me for Disability Living Allowance.

The Brothers Karamazov

Getting my laundry done and my blocking those kids out with my stereo on.

I'm wondering if I'm a good guy with a nice personality. I was watching this online chat thing with Miranda Cosgrove & some mom asked her if she would be willing to date a fan & maybe marry him; Miranda said yeah she goes for anyone who's nice & has a good personality I need some serious

The fact that it's been forever since I've watched Edward Scissorhands, and feeling glad that I decided to sit down and watch it tonight. It made me cry, but it was so worth it! And now I have Danny Elfman's score from the movie stuck in my head...

I'm also thinking that I should change up my nightly routine so that I watch one movie before going to bed. Maybe it'll make me dream about my special interests instead of all the other weird stuff I've been dreaming about lately...

Just trying to rest and and all..

The primary colors of my baby. gold&green, from the best mine in the world

That I need to eat breakfast.

My new fire agate. i'm down with its teal color

Trying to keep myself from feeling disheartened...