WP Addicts Anonymous
I wish I didn't feel so frustrated with myself, for skipping a day of writing. Aren't i ridiculous?
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I mean the writing for the book I'm doing for November's National Novel Writing Month.
I probably do deserve a rest, but I'm only 15,000 words away from the 50,000 word goal. *sigh*
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Well you could have a delusion that government is all over the place and feel very frustrated when you realize its a delusion or is it? Isn't that question ridiculous? As is implying that they have watched me from childhood... Isn't that question ridiculous? Aren't i ridiculous?
...maybe...
............................may.............be........
lulz
But the government watches us all - that is a fact.
They may not be watching me personally but if I don't pay my council tax they can send me to prison.
We have GCHQ here which has certain programs where they are looking out for unsavoury behaviour in our comms.
I can go find someone's house by going on google if I have their address.
We live in an age where it is easy to spy on others so I do not think your delusions are that ridiculous.
Perhaps just a little misguided, Dragnet.
I am losing touch with what the good fight is because I am just a little misguided apparently but I can do some drugs and have "they" inform me in weird a dream like state. That would be a 10 out of 10 would do again actually...
All until you start questioning the very foundation of our perceived reality then suddenly their tones change for the worse and then you find, you took things a bit too far.
But actually I like the out come, s**t, mkultra this b***h, do some wicked s**t for the greater good, I want it actually.
You know I would request that my brain stay largely unmolested and that my DNA remains unmodified but you know the beauty of it...
THEY AREN'T GOING TO RESPECT YOUR WISHES
THEY DON'T GIVE A FLYING f**k
All they care about is the programmed response...
Basically I found out we live in the Martix and I am insane now.
I have no f*****g idea what unsavory is apparently.
That line seems to be blurred to me,
I relate to what I relate to, if someone finds offense, well then f**k lulz
Plus you know, to be honest, some of my weirder Google requests might have just been truthful curiosity.
For example, not every question I have about female anatomy might be sexual.
Like prefect example, I googled breastfeeding with nipple piercings once.
Complete natural curiosity...
Curious about effects... and before anyone elses googles that unsavory request lulz
It actually helps breastfeeding in some cases.
I serious don't think that is that weird of request to me. I was into piercings, chicks with piercings would not offend as a likely mate. I guess I am just a total creep but say I get mate with piercings, seems like a normal flow of thoughts for me. If I had a mate with piercings, that would seem like a responsible question to me, no?
Unrelated to any human sexuality but take a conch piercing for example, makes earbuds a b***h.
Just saying...
So cause and effect for piercings on body functions does not seem weird to me.
Not to say piercings can't have sexual significance but that is off topic.
Also I am just a walking box of taboo apparently but I considered getting nipple piercings because YOLO lets go wild lulz
But I am not interested in such things though would still date a woman with facial piercings and more bizarre ones lulz
But not at the expense of body function male or female...
The dedication impresses me for some reason but I can't see myself getting any piercings. Squeamishness around needles isn't even the problem, I just spend too much time around electronics to want to invite excess shocks.
I thought about a lip piercing to get myself to stop biting it but I guess I just stopped anyway.
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"Standing on a well-chilled cinder, we see the fading of the suns, and try to recall the vanished brilliance of the origin of the worlds."
-Georges Lemaitre
"I fly through hyperspace, in my green computer interface"
-Gem Tos
Well you could have a delusion that government is all over the place and feel very frustrated when you realize its a delusion or is it? Isn't that question ridiculous? As is implying that they have watched me from childhood... Isn't that question ridiculous? Aren't i ridiculous?
...maybe...
............................may.............be........
lulz
as i recovered from my psychosis. i realized i had been "dreaming while i was awake."
Well you could have a delusion that government is all over the place and feel very frustrated when you realize its a delusion or is it? Isn't that question ridiculous? As is implying that they have watched me from childhood... Isn't that question ridiculous? Aren't i ridiculous?
...maybe...
............................may.............be........
lulz
as i recovered from my psychosis. i realized i had been "dreaming while i was awake."
As I recovered from my psychosis, I oddly had a week go by in about what seemed like an hour and I dreamed my motor skills were s**t and that I was in the matrix as a ten year old.
I was actually being pretty damn honest and everyone was actively confused by the ten year old statement.
Not sure why, I relate to the innocent aspect of children in terms of not knowing what the hell is going on as do I relate to people on the lower end of the autistic spectrum. Which is odd cause I probably give off a highly functioning vibe but internally everything is pretty random and I feel like I want to scream.
As I recovered from my "psychosis" I was actually maintaining a pretty consistent urge to scream but held it in so I could have "adult" conversations that seem to... in my dreams... consist of, your f****d, what did you expect to find dumbass and lulz you idiot.
But I found a fellow global thermonuclear warfare player who seemed pretty psyched on the idea of weed and he seemed pretty funny...
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I thought about a lip piercing to get myself to stop biting it but I guess I just stopped anyway.
I kind of want to get something done with my left ear, but not the traditional kind of piercing. What I want is several piercings that I can run a little chain through. I think that would look really cool, especially if there was some way I could put a few little hooks on it and still be able to get it in. Kind of show the side of me most people would never expect, and I figure it's unlikely to hurt more than what I do to myself on a regular basis.
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Yet in my new wildness and freedom I almost welcome the bitterness of alienage. For although nepenthe has calmed me, I know always that I am an outsider; a stranger in this century and among those who are still men.
-H. P. Lovecraft, "The Outsider"
I thought about a lip piercing to get myself to stop biting it but I guess I just stopped anyway.
I kind of want to get something done with my left ear, but not the traditional kind of piercing. What I want is several piercings that I can run a little chain through. I think that would look really cool, especially if there was some way I could put a few little hooks on it and still be able to get it in. Kind of show the side of me most people would never expect, and I figure it's unlikely to hurt more than what I do to myself on a regular basis.
O M G
Let me tell you about piercing pain, HIGH AS F...
STRAIGHT UP ENDORPHINS TO YOUR BRAIN YO
But I have also never had a piercings when I wasn't on THC so you know everything feels good even things that are all kinds of painful.
Also not sure how I wasn't caught doing that, you have to sign saying your not under the influence of any drugs... which I did... under the influence of great drugs lulz
but anyway, the soreness is worse then the first poke but also bear in mind I can stick my hand in boiling water on THC and did so frequently when cooking because why not test temperature that way right?
It doesn't hurt for about 3-4 seconds on THC but I did get burns that way that hurt later.
dragonsanddemons
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I thought about a lip piercing to get myself to stop biting it but I guess I just stopped anyway.
I kind of want to get something done with my left ear, but not the traditional kind of piercing. What I want is several piercings that I can run a little chain through. I think that would look really cool, especially if there was some way I could put a few little hooks on it and still be able to get it in. Kind of show the side of me most people would never expect, and I figure it's unlikely to hurt more than what I do to myself on a regular basis.
O M G
Let me tell you about piercing pain, HIGH AS F...
STRAIGHT UP ENDORPHINS TO YOUR BRAIN YO
But I have also never had a piercings when I wasn't on THC so you know everything feels good even things that are all kinds of painful.
Also not sure how I wasn't caught doing that, you have to sign saying your not under the influence of any drugs... which I did... under the influence of great drugs lulz
but anyway, the soreness is worse then the first poke but also bear in mind I can stick my hand in boiling water on THC and did so frequently when cooking because why not test temperature that way right?
It doesn't hurt for about 3-4 seconds on THC but I did get burns that way that hurt later.
I'm not planning on doing it while on any drugs (except what's been prescribed to me, anyway - I'm taking a controlled substance or two now ), but if it doesn't hurt much or at all during the process, I can definitely handle it. That's what I'm hoping for.
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Yet in my new wildness and freedom I almost welcome the bitterness of alienage. For although nepenthe has calmed me, I know always that I am an outsider; a stranger in this century and among those who are still men.
-H. P. Lovecraft, "The Outsider"
You know I would like to note to they that this actually implies that you can slightly molest my brain.
I only don't want it largely molested... so we can slightly molest away.
Also I was having some great delusions... let me share them cause like what could possibly happen...
Let maybe I Russian hacker yo?
That would solve so many problems wouldn't it...
Like all up in s**t I don't need to be into.
I can just be straight up murdered for the lulz
But not before... you slightly molest my brain... not largely... but slightly
I thought about a lip piercing to get myself to stop biting it but I guess I just stopped anyway.
I kind of want to get something done with my left ear, but not the traditional kind of piercing. What I want is several piercings that I can run a little chain through. I think that would look really cool, especially if there was some way I could put a few little hooks on it and still be able to get it in. Kind of show the side of me most people would never expect, and I figure it's unlikely to hurt more than what I do to myself on a regular basis.
All I can say is don't have a piercing through cartilage.
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It's like I'm sleepwalking