I have to wait until about three steps have gone past before I feel like it is safe to stand on, and the flat ones are scary because they make me feel like I'm going to slip over.
In 2015, I didn't know the shopping centre I went to was going to have an escalator, and when I was going to get on it, I looked down it and kept imagining myself falling, so then I got scared and didn't know what to do. I couldn't go on it, so I had to stand on the flat part in front of it, looking over the side with my hands over the rail, trying to breathe properly and stop shaking. My parents got on it first and hadn't noticed I still wasn't on. When my mum noticed, she tried walking back up it to get to me, but she fell (she was okay).
There were a few people behind me, but they were nice and helped me turn around so I could get away from it. I felt stupid and kept thinking of how weird they must have thought I was, so I started crying. I'm not sure if they noticed that, but I hope not. I had to sit on a seat next to it while my parents went to a shop, hoping I wouldn't see any of the people who helped me. I was annoyed at myself for the rest of the week.
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Your neurodiverse (Aspie) score: 152 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 70 of 200
You are very likely neurodiverse (Aspie)
AQ: 40
RAADS-R: 149