lately a lot. i am bored as a default.
but i do not like a lot of excitement. excitement could be good or bad. good, like fun. bad, like getting raped.
boredom has a negative connotation. but boredom could also be obsessive compulsive disorder. which i feel magnetically drawn to.
i am bored a lot. unless i am surfing the internet, i am usually bored. when someone is bothering me, i do not feel bored. but i would rather feel bored than get bothered by someone.
there are many things better than feeling bored. there are many things worse than feeling bored.
i am bored a lot.
i am boring.
not only am i boring, but i am boring myself.
but to be honest i do not like a lot of things. i do not like a lot of precious lil "people". socially or romantically. the ones that i do like, i do not personally know.
almost everyone that i have ever interacted with for significant time (and others that i have not interacted with that much) totally get on my nerves. yes, that includes myself.
but much of life has to be boredom.
chopping wood and carrying water.
some precious lil "people" act like they are so fun, exciting, important, awesome, cool, funny, wise, smart, and morally innocent. they make me wanna puke.
then again there is nothing great about me. there are numerous things bad about me. i ain't got no job, job skills, or precious lil "friends". i hold intense long term grudges. i get lazy and apathetic a lot.