Ignorance is bliss...?
This thought came to me lately.
While childhood memories are never accurate, I am lead to believe that I was better at coping with solitude as a child, as I seldom engage with people: your usual hide-in-the-library aspie.
Now, due to necessity and... well, life, I come into contact with people. I feel like I have grown to like human company, and in fact, enjoy it (to a degree), but it would seem that my ability to cope with loneliness had taken a nose dive. Lately, due to new classes (and with it, many new variables), I have even less contact time with people who I am close with. The silence was... unbearable.
I am an easily bored person. Adding crushing solitude does not help...
Anyone had similar experiences? and have coping mechs?!
I actually think you're "getting better."
I don't believe "ignorance is bliss" in your case. It is in other cases, though.
I believe you should read Plato's "Allegory of a Cave."
I believe you are reading to "see more light." You've been "out of the darkness" long enough for you to take the "next step."
I "emerged" from my autism in somewhat of a similar manner. It occurred when I was very young, though.
Slowly, slowly, I've been able to get to the point where I could be a viable person.