You sound EXACTLY like me.
Maybe it's because I'm an only child and my mum is a lone parent, but I am incredibly attatched to her. It's good in a way, we have a very solid relationship and I can go to her about anything, but, on the other hand, I'm 18 and need to start learning how to be independant and I can't! I would cry if I had to stay away from her over night, or didn't see her for a few days too.
I'm worried how this is oging to affect my life. How am I supposed to find my own place if I can't even sleep over at someone's house without crying for her (luckily, I got to college and will go to university in my own city, so I can come home every night).
What worries me more is that i'm completely dependant on her but she's a very heavy smoker. She's 53 and is already on 3 tablets just to keep her blood pressure stable. She smokes over 60 cigarettes a day and just will not quit no matter what I do. I cry I beg, I support her, I yell, I've tried everything. She won't quit! I can't sleep at night because I worry about it. If she dies I honestly don't think I could survive alone, as pathetic as this all sounds.