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I don't know maybe I'm over thinking too much about different things, I don't feel very festive this Christmas at the moment, I've had to run around getting christmas shopping done, had 4 or 5 days a week working during this period and its been stress-fully busy, I've got to work as well on boxing day and 27th, I do feel I'm missing out when I see other young people walking past who look like they are having a great time, having a drink and a party especially young couples and that they are all doing it and that there must be something wrong with me because I'm using the time to enjoy these moments in life and I feel like its my fault for them not wanting to be friends with me when I talk and socialise like every other NT person and it frustrates me and even a quite harsh part of me feels like its their fault for not wanting to talk to me. I'm also not looking forward to New Year either and I hardly like New Year, I don't make new years resolutions and I get sick of it when some people say as a resolution when am I getting a girlfriend and that it makes me feel like someone who CAN'T get a girlfriend and that really annoys me as though there is something wrong with me being single for a while.

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The holidays can be hard for many people. May peace be with you.

If it makes you feel any better, the 4 other people who are in their twenties at work all managed to get the day off Christmas Eve and New year's Eve and are all going out together having a good time, and one of them was gloating about me having to work both them days. I suppose after Christmas they're going to be talking nonstop about their parties they had, and even though I hate parties and drinking, I still can't help but feel a little left out. If I was into drinking and clubbing, they would have included me into their little group months ago. It's so sad that being a non-drinker can cause one to feel so isolated. But it seems that the only people aged 16-40 who aren't into drinking and nightclubs are basically most people with disabilities like us, or nerdy people. I'd say that about 90% of all young people are into going out to nightclubs and getting drunk, and I'd say that 99.9% of young neurotypicals are into going out to nightclubs and getting drunk. So finding a young NT who aren't into all that s**t is like finding a needle in a haystack. Maybe we're better off being friends with other Aspies/autistics or people with other neurological differences because they are more likely to be into stuff that doesn't involve alcohol and noisy nightclubs.

hope you feel better soon. I am working for xmas if that makes you feel less alone, no partying or seeing family!

Around fifty percent of the people in the world are introverts and the rest extroverts. Introverts are generally happy by the solitude. Being alone recharges their bodies. Introverts normally don't do the party scene and drink heavily during the holidays. So maybe you might focus on meeting other introverts.

There is a niche out there that you can fit into.

Introverted NTs still seem to go out and drink, maybe not to intense nightclubs but they've still tried these things, and they do it to fit in. It isn't until they reach a certain age (around age 30) that they realise it isn't what they really want to do and they stop. Some stop even earlier, but still the vast majority of NTs, including the introverted types, at least have gone out with mates and drank shots and partied all night when they were in their teens and/or twenties. My 24-year-old cousin is an introverted NT, interested in wildlife and working on his hobby which is art, but even he's been out to a few bars in London a few times with some friends. I think he just does it because his friends do. I don't think he's interested in getting drunk though, although he has rolled home drunk a few times when he was 18. See what I mean? I have a huge family, basically all NTs I think, but shyness and anxiety is a common characteristic in my family - but I can safely say that all of them have been out clubbing and got drunk in their younger days. So meeting another person with a neurotypical brain who has never desired to go out to a nightclub, is very slim to nil. The only person I've ever met in my life who has never been drunk and is not interested in nightclubs at all, is one of my friends who has learning difficulties (not on the spectrum but still got deficits that make her non-NT). I've yet to meet an NT who has never been out clubbing before. I think I will finally meet one on my 100th birthday or something. The conversation will go like this:-
NT: Hello, I'm Jane and I've never, ever been drunk in my whole life nor have I ever been to a nightclub
Me: Really?
NT: Really. I was never interested in such a thing. I preferred doing other things with friends, like movies, dining out, shopping, touring, hiking, hobbies, volunteering, travelling, exercising, the list goes on
Me: Are you sure you didn't even go clubbing or get drunk on your 18th or 21st birthday?
NT: Nope, I didn't want to
Me: Did you have commitments then, or was it just by choice?
NT: No commitments. I had no kids, I had free weekends and I had money to myself. So yes it was by choice
Me: Wow....

It has been raining hard so I saw a movie today. I'll be working in the yard/garden, weather permitting, this holiday season. If not, I have some sewing to do.

There will always be someone you can reach out to here on Wrong Planet whenever you are in need of support.

I've been apathetic for a long time xD Most holidays to me are nothing more then another day on the calendar honestly

I have been to a bar a few times. I generally just order a Coke. Granted they tend to be expensive soft drinks. But what the hey! Just because I go to a bar doesn't mean I have to get drunk.

I'm sorry you have to go through this during the Holidays. I stopped celebrating Xmas and New Years a couple years ago, and I even avoid visiting my family. In the end it was just a stressful charade, and I was no longer willing to keep it up. But they understand. And I'll visit them in January instead.

Don't get too gloomy on the subject of ppl giving you a hard time for being single. That's something that may either come in due time, or perhaps not at all. I have been a happy bachelor for years. If I were to start a relationship, it would be with someone I had known as a friend for some extended time first. That's just how it works for me, and ppl can feel free to find that weird.

Are you spending Christmas with family? If so, then focus on that, as Christmas is a special time to spend with family. I'm assuming you live with your parents, don't you? If you're rather close to them then just value them over Christmas, and think yourself lucky you have them, because some people have no family to spend Christmas with. I think most people are spending Christmas day and boxing day with their family, especially their parents. So just think of that.
As for New year's, I know how isolating that can make one feel. I remember when I was about 22 I was in bed at 10pm on New year's Eve, and for some reason I felt guilty and felt like the only 22-year-old in bed while everyone else my age were out partying the night away.

I understand not having a girlfriend is getting to you. That is normal to feel that way. If I was single, I would ask for your Facebook or whatever else you go on and try to get to know you, as you live in the UK too. You seem a lot like me because you get depressed over the same sorts of things as I do and I compare myself to other people and what they're doing with their lives. You sound like a high-functioning type of Aspie with self-awareness and a desire to have friends and a girlfriend. I bet you're good company to be with. I'm sure you will find a girlfriend soon, I know that sounds a bit cliched but you seem 'normal' enough. You just haven't found that special person yet.