13 Aug 2017, 4:21 pm
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13 Aug 2017, 4:24 pm
13 Aug 2017, 4:28 pm
StampySquiddyFan wrote:
kraftiekortie wrote:
You wouldn't have liked Levittown when it was first built.
Every house in Levittown looked almost identical at first.
Every house in Levittown looked almost identical at first.
Yeah, I probably wouldn't have. It's not just houses, though, it happened when I was looking at myself in the mirror as well. It just seems like paranoia
.Yep it sounds exactly like my old definition of paranoia , but I know now it's just anxiety. I don't know why but knowing that it was not paranoia made feel a lot better and put things in perspective , as paranoia is one of the things linked to 'you-know -what'
13 Aug 2017, 4:31 pm
At least you have "Ferrapists" here 
I've had both good and somewhat bad experiences with therapists.
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13 Aug 2017, 4:33 pm
kraftiekortie wrote:
At least you have "Ferrapists" here
I've had both good and somewhat bad experiences with therapists.
I've had both good and somewhat bad experiences with therapists.
Same here!
I either detest my therapist with all my might, or I really like them.
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13 Aug 2017, 4:35 pm
SaveFerris wrote:
StampySquiddyFan wrote:
kraftiekortie wrote:
You wouldn't have liked Levittown when it was first built.
Every house in Levittown looked almost identical at first.
Every house in Levittown looked almost identical at first.
Yeah, I probably wouldn't have. It's not just houses, though, it happened when I was looking at myself in the mirror as well. It just seems like paranoia
.Yep it sounds exactly like my old definition of paranoia , but I know now it's just anxiety. I don't know why but knowing that it was not paranoia made feel a lot better and put things in perspective , as paranoia is one of the things linked to 'you-know -what'
Thank you so much, Ferris. I'm just having a really hard time because I'm supposed to be enjoying myself but I am hating myself for these weird feelings and thoughts. You-know-what is what I calk it when I get too scared lol
. You're truly the best Ferrapist here !
13 Aug 2017, 4:46 pm
13 Aug 2017, 4:48 pm
StampySquiddyFan wrote:
SaveFerris wrote:
StampySquiddyFan wrote:
kraftiekortie wrote:
You wouldn't have liked Levittown when it was first built.
Every house in Levittown looked almost identical at first.
Every house in Levittown looked almost identical at first.
Yeah, I probably wouldn't have. It's not just houses, though, it happened when I was looking at myself in the mirror as well. It just seems like paranoia
.Yep it sounds exactly like my old definition of paranoia , but I know now it's just anxiety. I don't know why but knowing that it was not paranoia made feel a lot better and put things in perspective , as paranoia is one of the things linked to 'you-know -what'
Thank you so much, Ferris. I'm just having a really hard time because I'm supposed to be enjoying myself but I am hating myself for these weird feelings and thoughts. You-know-what is what I calk it when I get too scared lol
. You're truly the best Ferrapist here !My bad , I though "you-know-what" actually meant something specific ( that we talked about before ) that you didn't want to speak aloud like Voldemort
P.s. My GF told me to tell you you at your age you are at one of the most trickiest points of being a girl , as you get older it get easier - or so she said
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13 Aug 2017, 4:57 pm
SaveFerris wrote:
StampySquiddyFan wrote:
SaveFerris wrote:
StampySquiddyFan wrote:
kraftiekortie wrote:
You wouldn't have liked Levittown when it was first built.
Every house in Levittown looked almost identical at first.
Every house in Levittown looked almost identical at first.
Yeah, I probably wouldn't have. It's not just houses, though, it happened when I was looking at myself in the mirror as well. It just seems like paranoia
.Yep it sounds exactly like my old definition of paranoia , but I know now it's just anxiety. I don't know why but knowing that it was not paranoia made feel a lot better and put things in perspective , as paranoia is one of the things linked to 'you-know -what'
Thank you so much, Ferris. I'm just having a really hard time because I'm supposed to be enjoying myself but I am hating myself for these weird feelings and thoughts. You-know-what is what I calk it when I get too scared lol
. You're truly the best Ferrapist here !My bad , I though "you-know-what" actually meant something specific ( that we talked about before ) that you didn't want to speak aloud like Voldemort
P.s. My GF told me to tell you you at your age you are at one of the most trickiest points of being a girl , as you get older it get easier - or so she said
You are right by the way
(I worded my post wrong)- you-know-what is something specific (schizophrenia). It is like Voldemort when it comes to speaking it sometimes lol! Tell your girlfriend I thank her so much for her advice, but if I was a "normal" teenager, this would be a breeze lol! OCD and ASD are what really get me down! I hope it gets easier as I get older, though . I hope you are doing okay .
13 Aug 2017, 5:13 pm
StampySquiddyFan wrote:
SaveFerris wrote:
StampySquiddyFan wrote:
SaveFerris wrote:
StampySquiddyFan wrote:
kraftiekortie wrote:
You wouldn't have liked Levittown when it was first built.
Every house in Levittown looked almost identical at first.
Every house in Levittown looked almost identical at first.
Yeah, I probably wouldn't have. It's not just houses, though, it happened when I was looking at myself in the mirror as well. It just seems like paranoia
.Yep it sounds exactly like my old definition of paranoia , but I know now it's just anxiety. I don't know why but knowing that it was not paranoia made feel a lot better and put things in perspective , as paranoia is one of the things linked to 'you-know -what'
Thank you so much, Ferris. I'm just having a really hard time because I'm supposed to be enjoying myself but I am hating myself for these weird feelings and thoughts. You-know-what is what I calk it when I get too scared lol
. You're truly the best Ferrapist here !My bad , I though "you-know-what" actually meant something specific ( that we talked about before ) that you didn't want to speak aloud like Voldemort
P.s. My GF told me to tell you you at your age you are at one of the most trickiest points of being a girl , as you get older it get easier - or so she said
You are right by the way
(I worded my post wrong)- you-know-what is something specific (schizophrenia). It is like Voldemort when it comes to speaking it sometimes lol! Tell your girlfriend I thank her so much for her advice, but if I was a "normal" teenager, this would be a breeze lol! OCD and ASD are what really get me down! I hope it gets easier as I get older, though . I hope you are doing okay .My GF was not a normal teenager
, I highly suspect ASD ( worse traits than me in some areas ). What she wanted to say was 13 is a difficult age for most , you just have added issues and worries.As for Voldemort
, you have far too much insight for it to be likely IMOI was 19 when I first had feelings about Voldemort and it was the scariest time of my life , I've never been more frightened , nothing has scared me more and it still bugs me today. I had no internet back then so I just wrote myself off. What I'm saying is I feel your pain and think I know what your going through, stay strong Stampy , I wish I'd had your insight when I was 19 , it would of changed my life
I'd never even heard of Voldemort when I was 13 so would of never associated any thing I felt to it.
13 Aug 2017, 5:24 pm
It also didn't help me that when I spoke to Shrinks , I said things like , I was paranoid all the time , the TV talks to me , the world is leaving messages for me. On reflection it's no wonder I got treated the way I did.
I was not paranoid , TV's did not talk to me and the world was not leaving messages , I just didn't have the correct terminology or was unable to explain myself fully back then.
13 Aug 2017, 6:09 pm
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13 Aug 2017, 6:16 pm
SaveFerris wrote:
StampySquiddyFan wrote:
SaveFerris wrote:
StampySquiddyFan wrote:
SaveFerris wrote:
StampySquiddyFan wrote:
kraftiekortie wrote:
You wouldn't have liked Levittown when it was first built.
Every house in Levittown looked almost identical at first.
Every house in Levittown looked almost identical at first.
Yeah, I probably wouldn't have. It's not just houses, though, it happened when I was looking at myself in the mirror as well. It just seems like paranoia
.Yep it sounds exactly like my old definition of paranoia , but I know now it's just anxiety. I don't know why but knowing that it was not paranoia made feel a lot better and put things in perspective , as paranoia is one of the things linked to 'you-know -what'
Thank you so much, Ferris. I'm just having a really hard time because I'm supposed to be enjoying myself but I am hating myself for these weird feelings and thoughts. You-know-what is what I calk it when I get too scared lol
. You're truly the best Ferrapist here !My bad , I though "you-know-what" actually meant something specific ( that we talked about before ) that you didn't want to speak aloud like Voldemort
P.s. My GF told me to tell you you at your age you are at one of the most trickiest points of being a girl , as you get older it get easier - or so she said
You are right by the way
(I worded my post wrong)- you-know-what is something specific (schizophrenia). It is like Voldemort when it comes to speaking it sometimes lol! Tell your girlfriend I thank her so much for her advice, but if I was a "normal" teenager, this would be a breeze lol! OCD and ASD are what really get me down! I hope it gets easier as I get older, though . I hope you are doing okay .My GF was not a normal teenager
, I highly suspect ASD ( worse traits than me in some areas ). What she wanted to say was 13 is a difficult age for most , you just have added issues and worries.As for Voldemort
, you have far too much insight for it to be likely IMOI was 19 when I first had feelings about Voldemort and it was the scariest time of my life , I've never been more frightened , nothing has scared me more and it still bugs me today. I had no internet back then so I just wrote myself off. What I'm saying is I feel your pain and think I know what your going through, stay strong Stampy , I wish I'd had your insight when I was 19 , it would of changed my life
I'd never even heard of Voldemort when I was 13 so would of never associated any thing I felt to it.
Thank you both for your advice. Voldemort is like the scariest thing in the world. I honestly can't imagine what it would have been like not knowing it was just some stupid obsessive compulsive disorder. OCD is so much more than what you would expect. It literally creates symptoms of conditions you fear/don't even have, and the worst part is that these symptoms just worry you more. I was so stupid looking it up online, but stuff happens, I guess. I really wish you had had the information about OCD causing a fear of Voldemort when you were 19. I know and feel the pain you went through, believe me. It was horrific for a while, but it's slowly been getting better. Stay strong as well Ferris! I still feel terrible that you didn't have access to this kind of information back then. I'm so sorry
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13 Aug 2017, 6:17 pm
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I hate those creepy or impending-doom feelings and obsessive thoughts too. Today, my obsessions are mostly about everyday concerns blown out of proportion, but it hasn't always been like that.
Over the years, I've been meditating, especially after exercise or when I'm tired, since it works better. Some of that awareness has transferred to other parts of my life.
My best bet is, if at all possible, to check in with myself a lot, focus on the subtleties of how I'm feeling, and use my imagination: imagine myself relaxing each muscle or floating in water or whatever, any sensation to focus away from thoughts. That practice has given me a better shot at stopping the worst obsessive chains of thought before they cause a panic attack.
Through it all, I keep thinking, "These thoughts and feelings can't hurt me," or "My feelings are normal. It's fear, in the wrong place at the wrong time. I'm safe."
Over the years, I've been meditating, especially after exercise or when I'm tired, since it works better. Some of that awareness has transferred to other parts of my life.
My best bet is, if at all possible, to check in with myself a lot, focus on the subtleties of how I'm feeling, and use my imagination: imagine myself relaxing each muscle or floating in water or whatever, any sensation to focus away from thoughts. That practice has given me a better shot at stopping the worst obsessive chains of thought before they cause a panic attack.
Through it all, I keep thinking, "These thoughts and feelings can't hurt me," or "My feelings are normal. It's fear, in the wrong place at the wrong time. I'm safe."
Thank you so much! This really is going to help a lot
. I'm so sorry you have to go through this as well- it scares me so much .
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13 Aug 2017, 6:20 pm
SaveFerris wrote:
It also didn't help me that when I spoke to Shrinks , I said things like , I was paranoid all the time , the TV talks to me , the world is leaving messages for me. On reflection it's no wonder I got treated the way I did.
I was not paranoid , TV's did not talk to me and the world was not leaving messages , I just didn't have the correct terminology or was unable to explain myself fully back then.
I was not paranoid , TV's did not talk to me and the world was not leaving messages , I just didn't have the correct terminology or was unable to explain myself fully back then.
Yeah- I get thoughts like that all the time. I try so hard to resist them and tell myself I don't believe that, but it is so draining trying to resist your own thoughts. I hate these thoughts so much, but the good thing is I don't actually believe them whatsoever. I wish there was more stuff out there on "Schiz OCD"- it often ends up getting misdiagnosed as psychosis because of ignorant therapists.
13 Aug 2017, 6:32 pm
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