I've been getting this my whole life. I'm fairly sure the frustration (which is followed by violent urges) is a result of not being able to defend yourself verbally. When I first started secondary school (when I was around 13) there was a small number of people who messed with me like this. They made it out like they were joking but they were still disrespecting me so I didn't like it. I couldn't defend myself with words so I used my fists instead. I fought every one of them and it turned out that I was a pretty good fighter. The only reason people stopped messing with me after that was fear though, not respect. My friends respected me but people who didn't know me just knew I had a reputation. The older people in the school still messed with me and I fought some of them but since they're way bigger than me I couldn't win any of them. I put up good fights though and I did earn a fair bit of respect for having the balls to do it. Unfortunately as an adult I can't use my fists anymore so I'm once again defenseless. I can defend myself against people who directly talk s**t but against sly people who mess with me in subtle, insidious ways I'm pretty defenseless.
hale_bopp wrote:
You have a worried look on your face.
What's the matter?
Relax.
You look uncomfortable.
Lighten up.
etc.
Yep, this is what I'm talking about. I manage my emotions well and I never let things bother me so it pisses me off when people assume that theres I'm depressed/worried about something as if I can't just deal with whatevers bothering me and get over it. Its condescending and disrespectful of them. I have my weaknesses but this is definitely not where they lie, its quite the opposite, I manage my emotional states very well. If theres something causing me negative emotions, I identify it and resolve it.
15 Oct 2011, 5:42 am
