Almost feels like I'm cursed or something, I got a new job and am actively making an effort to be a better person as I used to be very poor at communication and punctuality, and I keep messing up the work times; The first shift I had planned everything to be on time, but didn't notice the starting time was an hour earlier, and today I thought it was gonna start at the time I was supposed to be there last time, and find out work starts even an hour and 30 minutes earlier. By coincidence I was planning on being there earlier due to the potential protests happening, and I'm still gonna be late, partially due to the bus being late, too! It's time to get a bike but I have limited finances :/
Also, on terms of communication, I used to be so bad at it, partially due to experiencing heavy feelings social anxiety and bad experiences driving me even into further anxiety.
It almost feels like I'm experiencing some sort of karma nowadays due to that experience because nowadays I'm actually making an effort into communicating with people, especially regarding work outside of my current job, and I have to constantly get in touch with people over and over as they don't get back at me regarding work or do so very last minute. It especially sucks when I keep my planning free for them and they tell me no extremely last minute!
Very clearly in my "If you really want something, you have to do it yourself" stage of life, but I'm trying to get into the cultural sector and return to acting, and I'm not in the mood to set up my own business or write a film just to get myself work, I'm not an entrepreneur nor do I aspire to be one.