Aspie women and weight

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i used to have an eating disorder, and sometimes it comes back. I get obsessed with counting calories, restricting calories and exercise. I am 5"7" and I used to weighed as little as 104 lbs. I know that is clinically not anorexic weight, but it is frightfully thin on someone my height. I typically maintained 120-125 lbs during my adult years. After I quit smoking 7 years ago I ballooned to 140 and then I went back to around 125 by extreme calorie counting and a lot of working out. Now I am at 144, and I would like to lose 10 lbs, but my way of losing weight tends to go too far. It starts consuming my whole day like other "special interests" do. I have maintained this weight for 3 years so I think it is the weight my body wants to be. I hate it though. I am not unfit- just bigger than I like to be. I feel more "special" when I am thin- I dont know why.

I had Psychology classes yestarday and now I know I have Anorexia traits... without Anorexia I'm strict, but I eat enough to be not skinny.
And I won't rather be anorexic, because I MUST BE PERFECTLY HEALTHY! no falling hair or breakable bones!

I've been lucky in this life.... tall, thin, no eating disorders except I am a very picky eater. I did go through a few phases where I was so picky that I ate very little and perhaps it could have been viewed as anorexia but it really was extreme pickiness. All food looked/ smelled disgusting to me, as though it had just been fished out of a garbage can. I will sometimes eat strange things and nothing but those strange things. Like refried garbanzo beans diluted with yogurt and orange juice.... I ate only that for weeks at one point.

when I was younger, I used to be very thin. After antidepressants and getting older, I gained quite a bit of weight. Now, I changed how I eat(MUCH less sugar and other carbs, LOTS more fat-makes me much calmer and less depressed) and am off antidepressants and have lost most of it. The funny thing is that it never bothered me being fatter. I notice others reactions so little and am so tactile that I enjoyed the feel of my plumper body. I am sure it must have been annoying sometimes to my NT sister whom, while not in any way fat, has always had an issue with her weight.

Everything correlates to anything if you go deep enough.

I feel like I am not myself if I am not thin. I think it has to do with the fact that puberty FREAKED ME OUT, and when I started to "fill out" I thought I was getting fat, and "Alexis is not fat".

I'm 5'7" and I go between 125 and 130 lbs. I am not anorexic but if I gain a few pounds, the person in the mirror feels like a stranger, and that's scary to me.

I was anorexic for a time in college. I ate once a week -- and when I say "ate" I mean a cup of yogurt or a granola bar, and usually only because I thought I should, not because I wanted to. The rest of the time I filled up on Diet Coke. I'm 5'5" and I was down to 105 lbs. at my thinnnest. I had this voice in my head (not like hearing voices voice, just some part of me) that told me I would only be worthy of anything if I was under 100 lbs. Once I was on medication for depression, I was able to ignore that part of me and went up to about 125 lbs. However, I totally screwed up my metabolism with that poor eating. Now I struggle with my weight; I try to focus on staying healthy rather than the number on the scale. In fact, I have no idea what I weigh! My Driver's License says 132, so I'll go with that.

This is a great topic.

I've had various mild eating disorders (not diagnosed, incidentally) at different times in my life. Overall, my weight has gone up and down - sometimes up or down somewhat dramatically if my eating habits suddenly change.

I am better with my eating habits than I used to be - but that's just about learning to eat more fruit and vegetables.

I have wondered whether I comfort eat as a result of my anxiety. When I overeat, I think that's usually what it is.
When I undereat, it's usually at a time when I'm pre-occupied with something (ie have a special interest going), so I don't necessarily have to have a 'food sensation' to help keep my life pleasant.

I've learnt that I do enjoy eating a lot lighter, as it gives me more energy and being slim (not skinny - I don't have a skinny kind of body, in fact I've been described as voluptuous, sometimes) gives me a chance to feel really good about myself and I like that.
Doesn't mean I'm perfect of course and I really won't 'diet' at all - I reserve the right to eat what I like!!

I'm pretty rigorous about getting enough nutrients so actual nutrition isn't much of a prob

Anorexia traits without Anorexia:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Orthorexia_nervosa

My Mum preachs about it.
And I am Nutritionist (my job), who is strict in nutrition rules. And I think it's better than junk food. Generally I can't find anything interesting in unhealthy lifestyle, I don't know why people enjoy it, it's just stupid.

^ yes - it's a sensation, I think. People enjoy the sensation of unhealthy food and resist changing into healthier habits. I've had both kinds of habits, at times, and I think if a lot of people knew how much better they could feel after the initial change they'd be healthier!

It's great to have women talking about nutrition in a forum, I think

Do you like when sb looks at you when you're eating?

I hate it and my roommate is ALWAYS in the room and looks at me. I wish she was more religious or sociable or sth, I'd like to be ALONE.
I hate restaurants. I hate to eat in school.

i am very overweight


i blame it on

medication

emotional eating

and no structured way of getting exercise ( because i dont get out much and just stick around and go on the computer)