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I finally cleaned up my computer room today. I wasn't satisfied with just sweeping and mopping the floor, so I washed it maybe three times. I also found a bunch of missing pens, pencils, a comb, and the little brush to a mini-dustpan I bought for sweeping dirt up off my desk. And I still need to move a lot my things back into the room. Ugh.

I still haven't tidied the bookshelf in the room, though. Mostly I have to organize all my books and stuff. And I should clean all the windows by the end of the week before I put up my Halloween decorations.

I have no idea what my blood type is.

Mine's probably on my health card.

I was looking at a list of common misconceptions on Wikipedia, and something I posted not that I thought was true (the phrase "rule of thumb" supposedly comes from a law where a man was not allowed to beat his wife with a stick wider than his thumb) turned out to be one. Now I feel stupid.

That will teach me not to always believe the "facts" printed in those little newspapers they have at the restaurants my mom and I go to.

Especially since since they had ones I've known for years not to be true, like "toads will give you warts", or even "George Washington had wooden teeth" (they were made from things like ivory and even teeth pulled from the mouths of his slaves). But in a few years the things not considered misconceptions now probably will be.

I'm so sad that my ice cream bars melted. I guess my freezer doesn't really handle cold things.

I wonder if i will find a job i can do well or will i be unemployed forever..

f**k family, f**k the thickness of blood compared to water.

i wait for the day my parents finally tire of her nonsense and kick her out of the house so i can finally sleep on something more than 30 inches wide.

Yesterday on the bus an old woman had the nerve to tell me, "pull up your pants"



Some precious lil "people" are so full of themselves that they truly believe that they have a moral right to get whatever they want immediately

Maybe she should not have been making remarks about strangers appearances

Some strangers could respond in ways that she was not prepared for

could it be possible that appearances are superficial




Besides there is no such thing as a perfect appearance

And if there were, the appearance would just be perfect at that second







She did not have a perfect appearance

And I did not have the nerve to tell her that

So why should I change my appearance to satisfy a stranger on the bus

As usual I feel guilty and ashamed that I am useless and not gainfully employed

Ain't got no job



However plenty of autistics and transgenders do not have jobs

Or work at jobs below their education

Or work only part time



And plenty of jobs pay more than they are worth

And plenty of precious lil "people" with jobs, like counselors, have confidence not proportional to competence




My breasts are too big

Wearing a compression test feels uncomfortable

Bras feel tight

Larger bras do not compress

But whatever

Plenty of cisgender females hate parts of their body

Plenty of men have man boobs

Some people have bigger beasts than me and then get enhancement surgery

Some people have smaller breasts than me and get breast reduction




It is also correct many people have diseases much worse than 36c cup breasts

So I feel guilty and ashamed




Plenty of people drop dead before they turn 34

Plenty of children have not enough to eat

Children homeless

Some defendants get wrongfully convicted and sentenced to jail

Some people got raped and murdered

So I feel guilty and ashamed for complaining









As usual I feel like a spoiled brat

And I feel morally inferior

^ I really don't think you have any reason to feel ashamed of complaining about dysphoria. It can kill you. Can't you get any help for this situation???
So thee are people worse off than you. So what. Doesn't mean your problems are nothing - especially that one, in my experience.

^^I agree with C2V - just because other people have it worse than you doesn't mean you can't be struggling too. Sometimes it helps to remember things to be grateful for instead of just focusing on the negative things, but other people having bigger problems doesn't make yours any less. C2V is also right that that is a serious problem. There's no reason to feel ashamed or like you're just complaining. I completely understand your feelings about not having a job, too - I'm in the same position, and it can really get you down. Big dragon hugs