YellowBanana wrote:
My psychiatrist still believes that psych hospital would be a bad environment for me, I have no idea if she's right or not. I don't want to be in hospital because the idea of it really scares me, but at the same time I don't trust myself not to try to hurt myself/kill myself again and if I were in hospital there might be less chance of that actually happening and my husband would be less worried (and thus less suffocating) because I would be somewhere "safe". I honestly don't know. .
I was terrified the first time I went to hospital. I curled up in the corner of my room with my arms wrapped around my knees, rocking back and forth. Then I took to shouting at the staff. That was because I was psychotic and paranoid at the time.
However, when I got used to the environment, and my medication kicked in, it did feel very safe. There is usually a strict routine and set of regulations, so find that out asap and you should be right. The thing that might worry you is the new patients coming in in a psychotic state - they can be quite unpredictable.
Thanks for sharing your experience. It's irrelevant though because I'm not going. Apparently feeling safe is not something I'm entitled to.
14 Sep 2012, 5:48 am
