Adult regression?
I'm trying to figure out if this is a common thing. I've heard/read stories of people who had pronounced autistic traits as children virtually "outgrowing it," adapting as adults to the point where they pass easily as NTs and may not even meet spectrum criteria anymore. But I haven't heard whether any of them ever slide back later. As for me, I was pretty much classic autistic as a small child based on my mother's descriptions, except for the fact that I was verbal, in fact, my vocabulary was extremely advanced. At the time of my diagnosis (middle school age) I was more in the AS/HFA/ASD range, although I did have a lot of traits I didn't see in other people who identified as Aspies (more repetitive actions and rituals, special interests/obsessions, and meltdowns - they tended to just be rigid and lack social cue reading ability) so I never fully identified as one even when that was my diagnosis (later changed to HFA, then to ASD). As a young adult I managed to throw off a lot of my quirks and blend in a lot better, and for a brief period refused to even identify as a person on the spectrum because I wanted to have a "normal life." I might be kidding myself that I ever fully passed for NT (pretty sure I didn't) but I think I might have been able to pass as just an odd/eccentric person - people would sometimes react with surprise when I told them I was autistic once I started admitting it again. I still had meltdowns and stims, but managed to mostly keep them under wraps. As I'm getting older, though, it seems like a lot of my pre-adaptation behaviors are coming back, which has led to some of the problems I've had lately with work and life. Am I regressing? Will I end up truly "living in my own world" again like I did when I was a small child? Or is it maybe that the behaviors were still there all along, but I had to work so hard to hide them that I burned out, and now they are just showing themselves again because I can't keep it up any longer?
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I believe the last sentence the correct answer. The natural aging slowdowns plus burnout.
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“My autism is not a superpower. It also isn’t some kind of god-forsaken, endless fountain of suffering inflicted on my family. It’s just part of who I am as a person”. - Sara Luterman
I know for me, the symptoms are more pronounced in adulthood. My experience in the "real world" has been a constant struggle to obtain a sense of serenity, which currently only seems to manifest itself from distraction. I realized that being independent and having to do everything yourself are two completely different things. Life is no longer as predictable or controllable as it once was. I think it can be, but I am not there, and I suffer the consequences.
I'm 42 now and it's getting worse.
Part of it is I'm open now about my ASD, and don't try to "wear a mask" so much. If I feel a stim coming, I don't try so much to stifle it now. If I don't want to talk, I don't talk. If I don't want to look at someone, I don't look at someone.
As the cool kids say now, "I'm out of f***s to give".
But I'm suffering some pretty pronounced depression these days, struggling to thrive in a way that leverages my strengths and treats some of my more ASD-typical behaviors as differences instead of weaknesses.
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My symptoms became stronger and more present when I started at a university. I took a few years off after high school, and because I didn't do that well in high school I started back at a community college which wasn't too bad as the environment was familiar to me and my peers tended to be 30 and 40 something workers, which is a normal crowd for me. Then a graduated from their, went to a university, and I became overwhelmed by the bombardment of messages saying you have to be a social butterfly to succeed, peers constantly approaching me for study groups, frequent in-class group work, having to remember so many names and having so many people wanting to talk you, expectations to dress certain ways for certain things and levels (I don't even like wearing different colors, let alone different styles), it all made me really stressed out, which is what lead me to seeking therapy for help with socializing which is what lead to my diagnosis of AS (one of the things when that lead down that path was asking for help with dinning with others, especially controlling my gag reflex, because one class I was in went to a sushi restaurant, which although I like the taste the texture is too much for me and it makes me gag). Fortunately though I can pass as a highly intelligent and equally eccentric NT. It has also made me went from wanting to get out of the house abit to looking forward to getting back home.
This happened to my uncle, he was a uni teacher and now he needs help with everyday things. he wasnt even diagnosed as autistic untill 2 years after it happened. from what i can gather it happened after a breakdown but its hard to get information on the subject from him as he will just end up talking at length about his routines at uni.
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If you would like more information about it, there's plenty of stories shared by those that have gone through that experience. I've been going through that process myself these past few years. It often goes by the terms "Autistic Burnout" or "Autistic Regression" and it's just a matter of adapting to your new set of circumstances and accepting them.
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I'm in the same boat.
My anxiety is worse even though I'm not working and I have nothing to be stressed about. Some days I wonder why I still go on.
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I've had symptoms all my life, but they were at their worst in my late 20's. I'm 32 now and symptoms are at their best ever, pretty much. This is because a couple of years ago I figured out what was causing them and how to treat it mostly via diet.
It's been my experience that antibiotic induced intestinal dysbiosis causes/exacerbates autism symptoms. If the same thing causes your symptoms, chances are it's an intestinal infection that's gotten worse over time with antibiotic use and poor diet.
Feel free to pm me if you want to discuss any of this.
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I feel the 'naturally outgrowing' of autism is kind of a myth, which would probably mostly apply to people who have everything settled: partner, steady job, house, etc. It is much easier to cope with autism if you have all these and don't have to worry as much about the future. A lot of us however do not have this luxury.
Personally my best time was in childhood, because I had to worry much less and the others of my age weren't at an age where they would bully me. From teens onward everyone tries to take advantage of you or bring you down in some way or another for their own advantage. Whether at school, university or work I can never fully trust anyone any more.
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