One thing we're clearly well in touch with as aspies - this world and the ground model of evolution and life are hell. Thus we have a lot of reasons to want to find a game that stabilizes our internal situation, or once we get done chasing fantasies, we have that awful 'walls breathing' sort of moment where it catches up and we're then on that page of wanting to stabilize our internal terrain.
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“Love takes off the masks that we fear we cannot live without and know we cannot live within. I use the word "love" here not merely in the personal sense but as a state of being, or a state of grace - not in the infantile American sense of being made happy but in the tough and universal sense of quest and daring and growth.” - James Baldwin