It is?
To be fair-ish, my self-discipline isn't the greatest; hence my addiction to the internet and video games. It's been a constant struggle to make me stop playing video games when the allotted time is up [originally it was a half an hour a day, but I frequently went over that, and now it's more like an hour or so a day].
At university residence, I had no self-discipline whatsoever: I stayed up late every night on the internet, and my physical wellbeing took a turn for the worse [I barely even brushed my teeth and didn't even shower; though teeth brushing is something I still struggle with]. The main point is, without someone enforcing things, I fall apart, and I'm not sure how to help that.
Yet, oddly, I had great discipline at karate class. Whatever I was instructed to do, I did it, no questions asked. [Including gradings and tournaments, which were two reasons why I stopped going, because they wore me out so much and I didn't even care about medals or higher belts]. I was arguably the 'best' student there. But I wasn't doing it for myself--I was doing it to please mum and please sensei and make them proud of me. [There seems to be a theme here...]
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"A memory is something that has to be consciously recalled, right? But it's different from a memory locked deep within your heart. Words aren't the only way to tell someone how you feel...As long as I'm with you, as long as you're by my side, I won't give up even if I'm scared." Tifa Lockheart, Final Fantasy VII