My mother hates me
its terrible, she acts like a sociopath, i just realize that when i was an adult. my father sayed she never accepted me the way i am. shes a proud woman, cause of thwt she nver accepted my autism. everytime im bad, and start to crying(something very rare) she should say, whats wrong? and give me tips, lik any average would do but she says. Dont Cry (in a very cold way) .. but mother... DONT CRY with zero empath and feelings and if i continue she becames agressive. i became a more cold and scared man because that kind of thing. since ever she disapeooves and mock many things i do. one of the scariest memory i have is when i was 7 years and prooved or smeled something in a wardrobe, and she sayed it was poison and i was going to die!! i was horrofied and started to cry and she sayed she was mocking me. she was passive agressive all the time too. when i went to another place far from her i was more relaxed now that im back i realized that shes a big problem in my life. today i eated something probably old in the street and my stomach started to hurt too much, and i was afraid to tell her and ask for tips cause she was going to be cold.. and she was. Why you eat bad food in the street? its your fault thats happening to you, instead of trying to help me. she helped me later but why be so agressive to someone ill? im anxious, my selfsteen is low, i dont have real life near friends. after some recents episodes with her i dindt explained, i starting to thiking about suicide... i cant take anymore the attacks
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Your neurodiverse (Aspie) score: 152 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 55 of 200
You are very likely neurodiverse (Aspie)
Special Interest: memes
Imagine being told your going to be sent to boot camp to fix you or your parents teasing you saying how you are adopted but then telling an eight year old kid just kidding.
I know what your going through