Are there any aspies out there who hate themselves?

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It's not useful to hate yourself

I'm not sure why someone would hate themselves when it's not useful? If you hate yourself you must in a way like it because people avoid what they don't like by nature.

Some do, some don't. It's best to accept yourself as you are if you can't change yourself. But for some this is more difficult than it is for others.

Five years ago, I really hated myself. I felt like a complete failure.

Today, the situation is much different. I am much more active and love my life. I still get frustrated with myself when I don't make adequate forward progress. I have already been making small steps forward this year and hope things really begin to come together.

I can't hate what truly does not exists.


Do I hate myself? I never did. Not even with the flaws, the mistakes, the failures...
Do I hate my autistic self? Not even at my worst years.
Do I hate my physical self? Not even once. At worst it's just allergies. I'm not as needy nor as sickly, and I could care less about appearances, so...
Do I hate my human self? Not really. Annoying as it is contradictory and indecisive, I don't truly hate it.


But I never had been proud of myself nor had truly loved myself either.

I think self-annoyance or self-apathy or perhaps self-frustration suits me better than self-hate or self-loath or even self-pity.

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I used to despise myself, but it's eased up as I've gotten older. I actually like myself now, which I could not have foreseen.

There have been times in my life when I have hated myself and wished that I had never been born. Thankfully, I am not having these type of thoughts presently.

I've always hated myself. I don't so much now since I've been in a relationship, but I do still get frustrated with myself. Whenever I get someone upset me, I always blame myself for being socially awkward. Or if something out the blue shows me up in public, I get angry at myself for being in the wrong place at the wrong time, even though it's not my fault.

I think my social awkwardness makes me hate myself the most. Like when I was on a work experience at a preschool, I was so terribly shy with the children. I was too passive, too nervous and just couldn't bring myself to speak louder or be more authoritative, no matter how hard I tried. I was afraid of being too confrontational. If a child was misbehaving, like snatching toys out of other children's hands or something, I would just stand there nervously. I knew it was the cue to tell the child not to do that, but I was too nervous to speak up. So I just nervously looked at one of the staff there and hoped that they would deal with the behaviour so I didn't have to.

These sorts of things make me hate myself. I mean, why the f**k am I so afraid of talking to little kids?

I'm not going to call anyone out, but some of my favorite WP members are posting in this thread. Like SEVERAL of ya'll.

You guys should try to remember when you hate yourself that someone out there thinks you're really cool. I don't know if that helps. There have been many times that I wished I could just turn around the way I saw people and let them see themselves that way. They might have been kinder to themselves.

I have moments, maybe 1% of the time I think I'm the most socially inept person in the universe, and it feels awful. But 99% of the time I just accept that I'm not a genius at socializing, and it's okay.

Sometimes yes, I do hate myself. I've said and done things I'm not proud of, and deep down I think I might be a narcissistic psychopath. I think the real reason I didn't finish high school, have a real job or drive a car is because I'm lazy, selfish and unmotivated and rely on my parents to take care of my financial and transportation needs. I'm morbidly obese and ugly. Sometimes I think if I say or believe anything positive about myself I'm bragging, and that is incredibly wrong. People have told me I'm too hard on myself, but there are so many other people who never feel bad for acting stupid, so I have to make up for that, or something...

I don't see any point in hating myself.