Voice locking up during conflict and whimpering puppy sounds

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I've noticed for the last ten or so years of my life that whenever I get into a conflict or any sort of tense social situation, my voice will 'lock up' so to say. My mind will form sentences of what I want to say but my voice will not get anything out and in the rare cases that it does I'll either stutter or say something rushed. I feel like I should protect myself but I end up not doing so and the other person walks all over me.

I've also noticed that whenever I do meditation or feel extreme loneliness, my throat will make involuntary sounds almost like a whimpering puppy. I feel like it's my spirit wanting to speak but my anxiety and fear always win out. It only happens under the two aforementioned circumstances, I've tried doing it voluntarily and it will not work.

The reason why this is happening could be because you are thinking too much of what to say next instead of listening.

Emotional overload.

I wonder if it's a holdover from my childhood because I would make the sounds whenever I was sad.

I really relate to this.

My voice kinda locked up when I was nervous about it doing so and I sounded almost robotic, or monotone, or slow, or too loud... always a problem when I was nervous socially. Or I'd give myself away by sounding nervous or even upset, even more upset than I was. Always a problem. I'm over it mostly, but I wonder how I'd be without meds.