auntblabby wrote:
anything involving pain is scary to me.
Agreed. I want to die, unaware in my sleep.
That said, and having been a hospice nurse for many years, I have certainly thought a lot about what it is like to die and had discussions with terminally ill patients. I continue to think about it - not obsessively but from time to time - to remind myself that we all die and I don't want to be unprepared for it. I want to be able to look death in the eye and not be afraid when my time comes.
I don't think it is unhealthy to realize our mortality or to consider death. Like someone above said, if you start to think about how you could kill yourself and take steps to make a plan, then it is time to reach out.
Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
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