I did feel like saying hating people but sounds like an extreme word to use, as I am not a hateful person. I like to interact and socialise with people mostly when I am at work and sometimes at home but when I am alone on my days off, I can't help but feel this way because there will be times when I don't feel like going unless I really need to and so will end up at home doing hobbies or something.
I don't know why but I seem to feel as though the reason as to why I get thoughts and feelings of frustration, upset, sometimes anger, jealousy and envy when out and about around other people, especially if I see them out with friends, boy/girlfriends looking seemingly happy and having a great time or looking successful at the careers or jobs they are doing and I seem to feel as though the more negative your mindset is, eventually they will be the only emotions you will feel because you may have had them for so long because you haven't experienced true long term friendships and relationships with other people and then hate takes over instead of love like as you become a misanthrope.
I remember a few times when they have had festivals going on in my local area and I have gone down, those feelings and emotions I mentioned start running around in my head and it makes me not always enjoy the day out because I feel alone there and everyone is with people and laughing, drinking and having fun.
28 Jun 2023, 8:06 am
