Hi, everyone. I was on here years ago, but I have no idea what my password was back then and I lost my old email address because some human turd stole my phone and changed my password. I hope it's okay that I created this account, and if not, do you have any suggestions?
I have suspected, and pretty much anyone who knows me and actually knows what autism looks like suspects I'm on the spectrum. I mean heck, if you look up autism traits in females, they just literally start describing me. I've been trying to get the diagnosis since like 2012, but I have always lived in small towns with no resources, and the doctors in the big city only see kids and don't even work with adults. The doctor I did get to see didn't even do the assessment, but he just popped off with the stupid comment, "Do you want to be labeled autistic?" Well, genius, I'm not looking for a label, but the labels I've been giving myself were things like dumb and stupid and worthless because I can't figure out how to be what they want me to be, so heck yeah I'd rather "be labeled autistic" if that is in fact what I am. If it's not that, I'm pretty sure I'm very neurodiverse, so that's the term I use now so I don't have to deal with people telling me I'm self-diagnosing.
As far as other diagnoses that I do have, I'm blind and I have Tourette's really bad with very loud coprolalia. The Tourette's wasn't diagnosed either until literally 2021 because they saw all the strange stuff I was doing and just thought it was part of being blind. I have a video about that if you want to see it.
Regarding happy stuff, I'm going to college majoring in social work, and I want to be a therapist specializing in trauma. My main special interests are music and teddy bears, but I have a lot of things I've been obsessed with over the years that I come back to periodically. I'm not sure if it's okay to do this, but I'm The Ticked Off Piano Player on YTube, just in case you would like to see what I look like. Also, sorry if you see any typos. I use a braille display to type, and the phone is having some funky braille translation issues today.