I think I would've loved math more if I have better language comprehension and cognitive verbal processing overall...
Whenever I read some math book, and I found something I finally understand, no longer feel like I'm lost in whatever abstract description, missing several contexts after countless times of asking definitions in the internet and 30+ times reading a specific page, it gave me joy.
However, infuriatingly slow to learn.

It sometimes takes time and practice to understand when you're going through the textbooks but it can be infuriating too! It's easy to feel lost sometimes when you're looking at the textbook. The more problems and practice you do though I think the better you get. I am definitely out of practice compared to years ago. Wish I would have kept up on it more but just never had to apply it to my job that much besides simple math. I thought about one day taking some math courses in Community College once I get some other courses I need to take out of the way.