Simonono wrote:
...I've forgotten what I started fighting fooooor!!
Sorry

, REO Speedwagon.
Welcome to WrongPlanet

Haha, I thought of that song too.
I feel a lot like you judelee, except for the problems with too many thoughts, and I've never thought about suicide. But I feel your pain.
Welcome to WrongPlanet, hopefully you'll learn lots here.