techstepgenr8tion wrote:
As far as individual theories, I very highly support the white-matter-deficiency theory because it seems the most plausible in my case. It may be completely different things for different people but again, what I feel I've been struggling against seems almost completely non-psychological and almost all neurological/physical like I have to pass information through these tiny little bottlenecked passageways and by the time it gets through it's already about 15 seconds too late.
Do you mean the idea of our brains not having the proper connections so that while each area may be functioning properly, the areas aren't communicating with each other properly for us to be able to process incoming information, figure out what to do about it, and send the signals out to our bodies for the proper response in terms of speech/motor movement? That theory makes perfect sense in my case too - I've actually been thinking about all that stuff a lot over the past few days, putting it all together from that angle, slowing the whole process down and analyzing what's going on frame-by-frame. Physically everything is working - sight, hearing, etc - sensory input and general information should be coming *into* my brain properly. Sometimes it gets a little messed up in the way my brain is *processing* that input though, particularly during times of overload. Once I get that mess sorted out I have enough NT instincts to know how I'm supposed to respond but again, the signals get messed up on their way to the motor and speech centres for me to physically act on what I want to do.
It's like the restaurant example I mentioned in the Post a Pic thread. Like you just said, timing is the problem. I'd be able to follow the waitress to the table eventually, but all the necessary cognitive communication and coordination would take too long. In a case like that it's easier to have someone tell me what to do - it's a lot faster for me to follow an external physical nudge and verbal command, rather than processing the whole situation on my own. The problem is the same in all situations, both social and physical responses. It takes too long for all that cognitive processing and coordination to take place, a feeling like I can't keep up with the speed that everyone else is moving at, especially socially and verbally. It's not too bad if I'm not overloaded but the more overload there is, the slower everything gets and that's when it's helpful to have another person giving those prompts to speed things up, very much like the physical and verbal prompts people with LFA require much of the time. Hmmm, it comes back around to that LFA comparison again...