Do you ever feel "not real" or robotic?

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I have that. I've had periods of that my whole life, where I catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror and wonder who I am. It doesn't last long, though.

Several months after starting my job, I used to have those episodes all the time. The workplace is so much different from school, college, and everything I had experienced before, and sometimes I'd be at my desk, zoning out and wondering what I was doing there.

Always when I'm depressed, which I'm not right now. Mirrors usually set it off right now, becasue I'm begininning to not be able to recognize myself. Almost like an out of body type of experience, but it doesn't happen often.

Sometimes I feel too real, like I am the only real thing in the universe and everyone and everything around me is an illusion. There are times when others may see me as robotic, if I don't react emotionally to something that should normally evoke an emotional response. And I suppose I may seem robotic to someone who is observing my daily routines.

But to me, it’s other people that seem to be robots.

Sometimes yes. In fact a lot at times. I just get this overwhelming feeling that NOTHING is real a lot. I have to bite my hand to prove to me that I am real.

Now this is what I generally feel. I watch people and they just look dead to me, or more so as if they've never been alive.

Well, sometimes after a long strecth night of staying up on attempting to work (it doesn't always work), going out in the morning feels surreal. I've to be extra focus of where I'm going and what I'm doing or else I'll just collaspe. However, each different sensory information is not integrated into a meaningful picture of my surroundings. Everything you see, smell, hear and feel is just something "out there" without any reality. So, my body becomes running a sort of autopilot without actually surveying the surroundings. This is very dangerous and I should've gone back to bed, but my commitments (meetings, lessons and labs) held me back.

You can imagine what happen if you've to be hypersensitive (due to physical tiredness) in order to function normally while physically unable to achieve even normal sensitivity due to physical exhaustion.

This, I tell you, is THE RECEIPE OF DEATH.

On the other vein, try to answer the following question in the signature.

strange that you ask... I used to ask my mom when I was a kid if I was really a robot that was made to think it was human... lol....

I feel like an inhuman ghost observing humanity. Much like Lain.

*Beep* *Beep* Danger Will Robinson!

Iv'e felt like I don't belong sometimes! Nah! Nobody on this forum is a robot or an alien! It's the so called normal people who are alien! Lol! Iv'e tired to fit in with non aspergers but I just can't do it! Non aspergers have either been rude to me! Or have just messed with my feelings!

I feel this way quite often, especially when in large crowds or am experiencing overload. I tend to daydream often and I really would like to stay connected with the world so that I don't have to frequently ask for instructions or to have people say to me that I missed something when they've talked to me. It's extremely hard for me to concentrate sometimes; could it be a form of ADD or something? I'm not quite sure myself, but it sure seems so.

I used to think(and still do)that I am just a ghost or a reflextion of somone9or something) in another life.


-SpaceCase

I actually sometimes feel exactly the reverse - that it is the NTs that are the robots because they can switch themselves on and off properly whereas I lack that mechanism and feel everything too sensitively.

E.g. I got upset at a friend's house over something on the news and when she - an NT, I would assume - said it wasn't worth getting upset about it since it was inevitable, I felt really jealous that she was not emotionally attached to it. Also they have a robotic way of papering over the cracks, shrugging their shoulders and moving on, that I lack.

Also when I am talking to an NT about a possible theory that I have come up with that differs from "perceived wisdom", they often act as if I hadn't said what I'd said. If the question has two possible answers and I come up with a third, they can't seem to understand that third way. The aspie that I expounded the same theory to agreed with my analysis and although we didn't quite see eye-to-eye she could at least cope with my slightly unorthodox way of dealing with the subject, rather than just trying to get the "robotic" answer out of me.

The only NTs I've related to well are those who at least acknowledge the above and engage with me, rather than stonewalling. Mum does it a lot but it's hard to tell whether she is humouring me or genuinely agrees.