What is your Biggest and greatest fear?

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I like both roller coasters and bugs!

My biggest fear is winding up like either of my parents. I think they're both finally both happy, but it took them forever.

Hospitals I hate hospitals

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I'm scared of spiders too. Seems many people here are. Is it an aspie treat? And why do you find them scary? I think I do because they're unpredictable since they have so many legs. Flies and ants and other insects don't scare me nearly as much as spiders. Maybe it has something to do with how many limbs we control ourselves simultaneously. 5 (fingers/toes) isn't much less than 6, but 8 or centipede-many is devastatingly alarming. And also, I find it worst when they move; when they're still I almost have no fear at all. I can't think of any other reason, at least. Any clues?

My greatest fears:

Never finding a mate and going through life alone.

Having to cope with the death of my mother without having the support of a significant other. This is something I truly dread. I do not want to face this alone.

Having to care for my aging mother. I’m not ready for this either, but it’s coming.

not doing something important in my life and to fade away without a meaning

Yes, I agree with Sean. Not making anything of my life. (This of course is perception-- but to not make anything of my life in my own perception. That's horrifying.)

Oh, and also dying in the deep murky waters of the sea. Maybe being dragged down into the brink by some hideous monster. ( So I stay away from the sea.)

My biggest fear is embarrassment.

For example, when I was a freshmen in high school. I suddenly stopped caring about effort and grades. And I said to myself 'I don't care how many priveleges they take away from me as punishment' I got almost all F's the first semester. My parents assumed that I was just having trouble with schoolwork and I was switched mostly to lower level classes in semester 2. My parents also assumed that I didn't do homework because I was always uninformed, or misinformed. Again, not true. So what happened was, they arranged for me to require a teachers signature at the end of each class in each entry of my agenda book to verify that each homework assignment was recorded and correct; THIS is what made me jump the gun and get with the program again, although reluctantly. And of course, my parents mistook my improved grades for the transition from higher level classes to medium or low level classes

- dying alone

- failing as protectorate (ie. having a wife, kids, whaverer and us getting mugged, her getting stabbed to death, and me not being able to save her or my kid(s) - even worse surviving it myself - when they were relying on me for protection)

- having something happen to me neurologically that would take away my self-direction or ability to sort through the BS of the world arround me

- hitting a kid while I'm driving

- getting the firm or company I'm working for sued over something I did that was negligent (when I have a professional job)

- I've had nightmares about having my chemistry go so far off the deep end arround the wrong types of people that I whited out and only saw glimpses of my AS mannerisms getting so spastic that I knew I was completely commiting social suicide (and poweless to stop it).

I'd have to say my biggest fear is being noticed in public.

Spiders and bugs scare me if it's unexpected (i.e. landing on me) otherwise I like to look at them.

Actually, how could I forget? I'm TERRIFIED of yellowjackets and wasps!

Cockroaches, ever since the summer at university that I got ill with tonsilitis and had nightmares of them crawling over me. (Ever see "www.fear.com"? I was almost ill during the scene where one of the victims is killed by bugs, once that scene was over I didn't mind the rest of the film). I used to get frightened if I found a moth in my bed.

Fire. It took me 20 years after the Kings Cross disaster to light a match. (We didn't live very far from the station at that time). (Yeah OK, it's only been 18 years, but roughly 20 years.)

That and the loss of my ability to think up new funny stories about politics. There are some pols in the UK who are just walking cartoon characters, and most of them have retired (for the moment anyway ) or joined the Choir Invisible (no more Robin Cook!! ! (((! !!). Some are still around but are just too evil to write into nicely funny stories rather than poke their eyes out with a blunt pencil. The new breed are just too sane to be allowed anywhere near Number 10 - "You don't have to be bonkers to run this country, but it helps".

The latter fear seemed to cure the two former fears, which is kinda weird. Though perhaps people are the scariest of all possible fears.

Oh yes. Losing my mind. Like getting a really degenerative, chronic form of Schizophrenia or developing Alzheimers early. Something like that.

Parkinson's wouldn't be good either.

I fear death by some sort of freak accident and sometimes heights and small spaces. I also fear the death of close family members and friends.

I also fear those times during the year when my mind decides to be messed up. Those are really though times for me that I feel like I could never get through and they come frequently, usually springing from the tiniest of bad incidents in my life.

I don't like failure. Ok, I can take a little of it but to be thought of as pathetic is something that I don't like dealing with. People already think of me as weird and all sorts of things and I know that life is not going to be everything on a silver platter. I just don't want to fail and I have done all sorts of crazy things to make sure that others don't think of me as a loser. I would not have much to worry about if I had better social skills or common sense or something. Oh well, life deals a hand and you have to play it. At least mine is not the worst.

My greatest fear that I have to face often is calling strangers on the phone (it still gets to me)

Other things I fear: bugs crawling on me, being stabbed in the eye. I'm sure there's much more, I'm slowly getting over the Aphenphosmphobia.

That I will be all alone and no one will love me anymore...


-SpaceCase

Phobia: Male genitalia, pregnancy, scorpions, hospitals, corpses, or signs of pestilence, crying babies.

Genuine fears: Going blind, losing the use of my hands, becoming trapped in any state.