Hi everyone.
I never knew that what I am going through has its own category. I've been going to a therapy workshop for social anxiety and happened to gather a handful of brochures yesterday. When I got home, I leafed through a pamphlet and found the term 'Asperger' under the subheading of a social therapy group. I had no clue what it was so I Googled it, thinking 'maybe I can relate to these people.' Google led me to Wikipedia, which led me to this site and after reading a few posts I was truly awed that so many people have endured thesame experiences that I have. As far back as I can recall I've always felt out of place...struggled to make friends and 'fit in' ...&with the right amount of acting I succeeded. But even so, I've never felt a sense of inclusion. I have never had close friends that I secretly longed for so one day in high school I just stopped trying. I felt awkward, stupid(i can't explain things and get my point across without written words!), slow (never understood jokes,sarcasm, etc). , and fake (every social interaction took a tremendous amount of effort in relaying what I felt people wanted). I felt defeated...by what? I didn't/don't know...defeated to the point where I just had to quit everything...everything. Enters depression and several suicidal attempts.
Anyway, just wanted to share my story and introduce myself. Hello! I'm am a 21 y.o. college kid from Los Angeles and am diagnosed with depression but am almost positive that this prob stems from AS.Thanks for reading.