Kinda new mostly lurk thought I should make one of these

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while I'm still fairly new and not wait til I've been here a year or something. I lurk on forums mostly and I'm not a member of all the ones I lurk on and I am not the active on some of the ones I am a member of since their usually discuss X web comic type forums usually. I joined here as a preventive measure I guess since I think I may have Asperger's but so far I haven't yet gotten to the part in the (always long it seems) process of being diagnosed one way or the other be it really AS or something else. I have posted a few times on here and have read a few books on Asperger's because some people at the testing place that I talked with (I scored too high on their test to get job help from them) said I might have AS. So after that I got some books from the library about AS and read about it since I'd never heard of it before and Lo and Behold a lot of the stuff it talked about was like it was talking about me (not all of it but enough to give me pause at least). I don't know much about mental disorders or whatever they are so I may not have AS and actually have something else for all I know that is similar but for the moment I'm leaning toward possible AS as something I can call this whatever it is I have that makes me not normal.

Up until a year ago maybe a five years ago (the days and stuff all run together in my head so I can't be too sure how long ago exactly but with in five years of before now at most) I thought I was normal or at least mostly normal and didn't know I had anything wrong with me (or was in subconscious denial but I'm not sure). I was in Adaptive P.E. as it was called and in elementary school I was pulled from class when I was little for 'Recourse' to do testing with some teacher that normally worked with the disabled kids.

Whatever I am I'm not that severe as far as getting dressed eating (mostly) and having a job (not so much now but I did have one til recently .... kinda still do but it's 'on call' and they don't call anymore .... and even if they do I don't have to take the jobs unless I want to and if it's a very short job or something I really don't like like crossing guard duty I won't take it. The pay is good but the hours aren't so I'm trying to get a new job. Bad time I know but with the way the places I'm going through work by the time they do much of anything the job market or whatever may have improved). ........ I'm mostly normal er I can function for the most part is what I mean. I'm not so good socially (worse now that my only close friend, sadly we're growing apart since she's more disabled then me and acts younger than me which annoys me. Also she asks me (who has never had a boyfriend) what she (who has had 10+ boyfriends) should did when she has relationship problems. That real bad part is she moved to the other side of the country last year when her parents retired. Good thing is she's joined a program out there that's supposed to help her a lot with taking care of herself and stuff). So socially I'm not so good and my being shy and insecure (I guess) and the generally low self-esteem and lack of (forgot the word for it) wanting to do stuff, doesn't help.

Oh hey, I'm a girl (or woman if you prefer) and I'm nearing 25 (Bleah). I'm also a conservative and registered Republican and so far vote that way because it's easier to vote the same as my parents and I can't understand what most of it says anyway (I don't research anything unless I consider it important and I do read or try to read the voters guide that explains the propositions and articles and whatever else that ends up on the ballots). I'm thinking for the next voting thing I may just write in random fictional characters since I don't know who any of the people on the ballot are no matter how many times I hear their names on T.V, radio or via telemarketers/servery people.

My user name is also my real name or the closest to it I wish to have widely available on the internet.

I found this place a while ago before I knew I had something wrong with me (more strongly anyway) and didn't join or anything, but later after I read up on AS some I though about this place and found it again and just in case I signed up so I could post if I wanted to and read the forums. I mostly lurk but I may post more in the future .... don't know. Now I need to stop typing this and pose in on the rp I'm supposed to be in right now.

To WrongPlanet!! !

Welcome to WP!

Nice to meet you, EB, and welcome aboard the Wrong Planet.