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hi, i'm Gon, 39yo, and i currently live in south of Spain.

i was diagnosed asperger some years ago with good IQ level which helped me, and i'm a professional artist who loves to work, maybe because it's the way i can express better my inner universe.
however, don't know why, i never assumed that fact to anyone and i decided to fight (against myself) to not be "caught"... but finally i had some minor issues that made me finally accept, assume and coming out with some pride.

i'm not very social, so as you can imagine when i have an exhibition i get "fevers" and the last thing i want is to be there at the opening :) my art work is supposed to be good, as some of the best international art magazines and publishers use to feature me, but my lack of social empathy makes me feel always on the back stage and seems that the anxiety, social issues, etc, etc sometimes puts me out. specially anxiety which can block everything. and a huge lack of ego...

curious that since last week that i joined the wrong planet and decided to assume and find more info, that i feel much more relaxed in life. more mentally organised? maybe. and that's great.
i don't know anyone with asperger, and even less here where i live now. but seems that i came to the wrong city :) i'm vegetarian in a land of "cannibals"; buddhist (i lived some years in Tibet in a monastery school) in a land of fanatic catholics; gay in a land of homophobic-macho-heteros; aspie in a land of "perfect" people as they seem to say while they walk full of themselves.
professionally i just need to find a good art dealer to "take care of me". i always lived alone by myself, since teenager, and i love it. i already lived with girlfriend and boyfriend and loved it also. (not with them together!! ;) 3 years with each one).

but i guess that i would like to meet someone to talk about these issues and how can we go over them. not fighting against ourselves, just find some good solutions to live more peaceful. so if there is here another professional artist it could be great. also if there is anyone here from south of Spain, that would be cool.

and if i can help in anything, even better :)

would love to talk about how can an aspie (or an autist) feel and express artistically. what do you feel and need when you're creating? what's your inner purposes when you do it?
it's a real good tool for us who are bit "verbal clumsy" and also therapeutic. do you get attached to your own creations? are you an easy seller?

finally, i really want to thank you to Alex and the whole bunch of you who built and keep this wrong planet the way it is. it has been very useful to me and to lots of people as i could see. thank you very much and congrats on this excellent work.

besos from south of Spain

BTW - the content of my art works may not be suitable for all ages and countries because of some art nudes, but they are not even erotica. for me nudity is quite normal as i always have been naturist, so please take them as art and natural, if you'll check it.

It's nice to meet you, Gon. Welcome to the Wrong Planet Community.

Hola Welcome to WP

Hola y muy buenas noches!

I am a musician and you asked about what I feel or my state of mind when I play. If it is another's work (like Debussy, Falla, etc.) I BECOME the music, I have the emotions that the music is trying to be, I sublimate my ego. When I improvise (I play blues and jazz) I play in a style that matches my moods, whether serious, humorous or other feelings. In this way I do not remain self-conscious as I fix my perception on the feelings I create or act out, as if they were coming from someone else, yet I do feel them in a pure, non-egotistical way. Hope this made sense.

hola zena4, jetlag, keith and polymathpoolplayer, tk you.

polymathpoolplayer, it does all the sense to me. and it's great to know here a musician, even more if you improvise and play jazz and blues. i'm kind of addicted to classic and jazz, specially piano. please let us know if we can listen to some of your works.
my most important part of the work is self-portraits, where i in the morning express my feelings, not yet filtered by the consciousness. but once i always work in a concept i never see myself in the photos i take even if i do all by myself: being the creator, photographer and model. and i need to do them alone to be focused on it. (and i really don't feel comfortable when other photographers take portraits of me... maybe because i see myself there and not in mine where i see just the concept).
it makes all the sense what you wrote.

To WrongPlanet!! !

Hi Gon! I'm also an artist...painter....am coming to terms with being Aspie and it isn't easy. Had most horrific time at an opening recently....a work was selected on a shortlist .......wasn't expecting the BIG atmosphere. Spent whole 2-3 hours in a state of trance or stunned....completely freaked out. Don't think I'll go toanother BIG type opening if I have work there.....maybe not go even if I don't have work on display.This night is what brought me crashing down......feeling that being Aspie is dangerous for exhibiting. Like yourself have been thinking I need an agent or some such person......
I live in OZ, moved from Melbourne to a small country town a few years ago. Very hard if different but the countryside ,nature is great.
Regarding my work.....I lose myself in it......abstract-figurative......feel whole when painting. Used to feel whole when dancingtoo, but have ME/CFS now and cannot dance.

Making art is a solitary life and suits my aspieaspects. Dealing with galleries and directors is really unnervingly spooky............completely out of my depth.
Hope this has been of some help.
Juli

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