15 Feb 2006, 8:33 am
So i've been recently looking into the strong possiblity that i may have asperger's, i often find it very difficult to socialise with people and even when i do i still find myself needing to shut myself off in my room for a few days.
I find it incredibly difficult to make small talk and much prefer to have a more concrete topic if i'm talking to people. I have a lot of interest in computer games and am learning C++ to study games programming when i go off to uni. The thought of going to uni is making me anxious already and it's not till spetember 
I'm not 100% certain that i have asperger's and i really don't want to go see a doctor mainly because i don't think it'll help much and my family often worries about me enough without them possibly finding out about this (i know i'd get even less peace then i do now 
). I'm 19 years old and currently on a gap year having finished school, which i hated as i could barely fit in with anybody. I do have 1 or 2 close friends who have become more accepting of my more strange traits and this has in turn helped me realise that i don't really seem to think or act the same way as most people do.
anyway just thought i'd say hi.
15 Feb 2006, 8:55 am
15 Feb 2006, 10:17 am
Yeah i always wanted to program computer games, it just sounded like such an ideal job for me.
The course i'm doing at uni in september is actually 'computer games programming' and for this reason i've spent most of my gap year learning C++. I really enjoy programming and the possibility that i might learn to program games (combining my 2 main interests) and do that for a living sounds like a dream job to me 
