Hello everybody, I'm 16 years old. My mother tongue is not English so I'm sorry for my weak english skills. I speak French and Dutch at home.
Let me tell you guys my life. (special parts about my life)
Kindergarten + Primary school.
When I was a kid I was interested in alot of stuff: like Australia, Horses, Animals, Astrology, China, History, alot of stuff. I could read before I went to primary school and I could also calculate, I learned it myself. So the teacher decided that I could go to second class of primay school without going to 1 class of primary school.
I had very good verbal skills, but I was not very social. I always had friends, but I was more on the background. I loved to learn stuff, and understand stuff. I never learned things by rote. I always tried to understand things, I asked questions about life and death, war, hitler, etc Alot of stuff.
I also played chess very young with my father, I was the best of my school to play chess. I loved stratego too.
But I always had some kind of concentration problem, I became bored like hell, school was boring at primary school.
Secondary school
BOEM big difference, I had good grades the first year, but I started to have problem with Mathematics, and I didn't like to learn. I was also very slow with everying, Its like a sleep the whole time. But I was some kind of social in the 1-2 years of secondary school, had alot of friends and did stuff. I also remember that I thought alot about being perfect in everyway of my life. Like always wear good clothes, don't do childish, I started to think like the other would. But not in a normal way more in a crazy almost psychopatic way. I was very good at seeing why people react, I also could feel tension in class. And I'm a master at seeing how people oppose to each other, like: How to think like the other would think about somebody. But I could never think how somebody would think about me, the reason was that I always see myself as better, I tried as hard as possible to be perfect. My grades were decent and I could go to 3th year.
When the problems started, hell started after the shock.
My 3th year secondary school, I wasted a year of school was bored like hell, hated my life, a little meltdown. I tried my 3th year again, I feel stupid, I could not concentrate, I sucked. But I had alot of friends, it was a fun year, but a very stupid year. I also tested my concentration and IQ. Bam the shock came up, I had an IQ of 78, and I had my concentration on everything low low low low. (first I did concentration test, and then IQ test at a professional psy).
My concentration was low, and I was a ret*d.
I did no other tests, except a little talk with the psy.
"Oh so you learned to ride with you're bike at the age of 8 year, hmm.."; "And you bought a pullover in a shop who was too small and did not exchange it back in" Okay I was on the ASS spectrum, I could not believe what I heard. She also gave me some Ritalin for my concentration.
At the moment all my grades are good, I understand maths, I love school again, The only problem I still have is "I want to feel better then other people" "He wil think this about me when I do this"
My IQ is very low. (I don't want to hear people saying, IQ is not important or other s**t like that, it is for me)
Why I think I don't have A.S.S? (Here come the typical ASS carac")
- I'm good at abstract thinking (ASS people think mostly 'concrete')
- My metacognition skills are very good.
- I have good non verbal learling movements (Most people from the ASS spectrum have very bad non verbal learning movements)
- I don't have 'routines'. Never had, not even in the past.
- I can detect when a people is trying to be smartass, when a people thinks hes confident, when a people fakes stuff, etc
- I have alot of interests.
- I can tell when something is important or not.
What I'm good at.
- I'm good at seeing the hierarchie in objects and people. (Evalution of myself)
- I have good abstract skills. (talking in a general way) (Evalution of myself)
- I have very good verbal skills. (Psy told me)
- I have a very good long term memory. (Evalution of myself)
- I think bigger, not exactly deeper, but bigger. (I can associate stuff with other stuff) (Teachers told me)
- I'm also not bad at thinking deeper. (Evalution of myself)
- I have insight and common sense. (Pupils tell me).
- I'm a very good diplomat (linked with verbal skills)
- I'm very good at thinking rational (Can be good or bad, imo I prefer thinking rational then Emotional)
What I'm not really good at.
- Concentration
- Organisation of boring stuff, like school work, clean my room. (But if I want to I'm very good at)
- Short term memory.
- I think too much. I'm a doom thinker.
- Gymnastics.
Its maybe weird to tell you guys that, but I wanted to be in contact with Aspies, because they can tell more about themself, then the typical answers I get from psy's.
12 Feb 2010, 11:24 am
