Hello, my name is Max
Suspect myself of having Aspergers but I'll never know for sure because I don't want to be diagnosed.
I have obsessions that come and go in phases
I don't know how to talk to people well
I don't like to be touched much, even by people I love and trust
I have this thing were I rub my face and my head and hair if I talk to anyone a lot or if I am busy or tired, I rock when I am upset or tired or over caffeinated, sometimes I bounce my leg and wiggle my toes in my shoes for hours.
I have had what you would call shut downs and melt downs (bad meltdowns)
I can't stand to be crowded.
I jump at the sound of semi trucks, train horns and loud abrupt noises, or small annoying things.
I can't stand to be tickled, It makes me want to kill.
I can't or don't make eye contact well, this is annoying sometimes because my g/f assumes I am checking out other girls chests, while I might have done this once or twice I usually just can't look into peoples eyes so instead I look at their chest or my feet or their forehead.
I get distracted by objects a lot.
I have a large imaginary world I have created for myself.
My mother told me I spoke early and had terrible small motor skills (I would struggle to pick up a cheerio) until I started playing video games.
I enjoy being alone, it makes me feel free.
I feel 3 years behind everyone else in many respects, I got kicked out of highschool and got my G.E.D, dropped out of college, want to give it try again eventually but right now I'm trying to hold down a job.
Those are the things that make me suspect it, I don't really think it would make much of a difference to see a therapist though, I just wanted to come to a place where for once I feel like I could relate to some other humans.
I don't know what this will be like, on other msg boards I have a problem with lurking.
So hello.
30 Aug 2010, 4:50 pm
