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Hi,

35, self-diagnosed aspie. I was here before, then disappeared for a year, life got hectic and I didn't have the time to post.

Let's see... Back then I identified as female, I still kinda do in my own head, but I gave up transition because of social anxiety. So, I'm back to living as male in day to day life, but I still feel more female then male.

My girlfriend back then is now my wife, for a little over a year.

Why am I back? Well, I'm finally seekig a diagnosis because of problems at work. I'm having a horrible time communicating wth my new boss, either I'm just not hearing her correcty, or she's going senile.

She constantly tells me she said things that I don't recall at all from our conversations. She uses belittling and condescending language, and I find it impossible to like her.

She also constantly fills silence with noise, and talks to herself, which tend to overwhelm me. I don't know if I'm shutting her off because she overwhelms me.

I'm not exactly sure why I came back, probably the same reason I'm seeking the diagnosis. I need help, because this is seriously impacting my job. I've been here 10 years, and she just gave me my first really bad review ever, and I just need help getting through this.

I'm trying to post to a different position, but because of the bad review I'm severely limited in my ability to apply internally, so I'm feeling very trapped, and the only way out is to quit... problem being I can't afford to quit, my wife is underemployed and has been for a while, my savings are gone keeping us afloat while she's been job hunting.

I'm hoping the diagnosis will actually help, maybe get HR to intervene.... or get me to a specialist who can help me express why I simply can't work for this woman any longer.

Sorry, I'm rambling, a million things tryin to come out at once.

Hi. That sounds awful. I wish the best to you! Have you tried ear plugs, if not just to cut out the high end? It sucks trying to fight the environment AND do a good job.

I remember you flutter, welcome back. I can sympathize with your work difficulties. It's a large portion of your life and if you're miserable because of the relationship with your boss and/or co-workers it is a living hell.

James- she's in another state, I do wear headphones whenever possible to reduce the noise, but she does this on conference calls while she's trying to give instructions.

Aimless, good to be remembered, and yeah, life has been miserable since she got promoted.

Wow. Things are difficult all around for you right now.

I have an appointment with a specialist thursday to talk about a diagnosis, etc.... but i'm hitting a point where I can't function.

My mind endlessly cycles the dilemna looking for an escape, but at the end of each cycle i'm back where I started.

Welcome back to the WP, flutter.

Welcome back!

Welcome back.

You're looking at the real me, this time.

Welcome back!